smile lines

2007-01-08T17:12:00.001+08:00

i've moved!!

2006-12-19T01:46:00.000+08:00

I LOST MY CAMERA! :'(
argh, i haven't lost something so important to me ever since the time i lost my pencilbox in suntec :( and i thought i was big enough to take care of my things and never lose anything important again :( i'm really so frickin sad, i've got no mood to blog about my birthday.. so i shall just tell the story in point form and with pictures..

birthday eve - dinner with majun at crystal jade dining in vivo city
received godiva chocolates and a treat to a nice chinese meal from him :)
met darren
who bought me a topshop skirt :)
moses surprised me at twelve am
he bought me a charm from agnes b
we went for a long drive to the airport, and i showed him the secret tunnel jon brought me thru, to changi village where he taught me how to park
then supper at bedok eightyfive -> surprise no. one!
birthday - picked sara and weijie up from town
came over to my place
came out from the shower, sara says she's got nothing for me cos she's broke, besides a collage of photos and a card
walk out of my room and tada, she decorated my door and the curtain outside my door with christmas balls and photos of my favourite friends, with a note from each of them :)
also, a new pair of superr high pumps right outside my door :)
sent weijie down to bugis for his own birthday dinner, sara and i headed towards chijmes
parked my car in school
had dinner at gyu kaku
had a pleasant surprise, cos eight people turned up for the dinner instead of the initial five who said they could come :)
got a bag from jenn and a pencilcase from steph :)
weiren popped out!
had dessert at menotti
sara made us go take pictures with the fountain in raffles city
went in, and audrey popped out!
and then there's an awfully chocolate birthday cake, with jan, michael, wesley and alex there!
they sang the birthday song :)
and that's surprise no. two :) with my birthday cake no. one :)
sent christina home and she played an audio cd for me
it was a recording of all my favourite girls' messages with a song after each message
and christina was the dj! haha, it was hilarious!!
on the way home, doreen and jas called to wish me happy birthday :)
sunday - lunch with darren, wallace, elizabeth and humphrey at sakae ps
and the rest of my surprises, i think i will blog about them another time hee before i spill the beans
but really, last night and today were THE BEST! :)
until i lost my camera :(

that's that for my birthday, the story's to be continued though :P
went for christine's birthday party, then had rochor tawhuay with liwei, elroi and dennis. had a really good chat till midnight, when the heavy rain came splattering.. driving in the rain was horrid!

I WANT MY CAMERA BACK! :(

sara and i in my room :) the note says 'to the most perfect girl'

weiren&me&sara

michael&jan&me&alex&audrey&wesley

bev&i

me&bev&jenn

sarah&i

me&weijie

us at chijmes :)

weiren&i

majun&i

us cooking!

2006-12-15T15:43:00.000+08:00

you have heard the beautiful story of the blessed Savior's birth
how a choir of heavenly glory sang of peace, good will on earth
how shepherds and the wisemen came from fields and lands afar
and discovered the lowly manger scene beneath the shining star

sometimes it seems only a story
a legend from long ago
how God sent His Son down from glory
our redemption to bestow
so simple was this little child
His life so pure and true
He lived His life so undefiled
to give us life anew

happy chrismukkah!

2006-12-14T15:35:00.000+08:00

waking up to a lovely rainy afternoon,
taking a nice warm shower,
taking my own sweet time to shampoo and condition my hair a few times so the smell of smoke goes away,
having two bowls of home-cooked warm porridge.

is the best :))

2006-12-13T02:19:00.000+08:00

the senior jazz band..

djas, our jazz instructor

xiaole&audrey&me&grace

inez&me&grace

some pictures from the batch out concert at esplanade cafe and ipho gathering at kevin's.

went for my second facial today and it still hurt like !@#^. my face is really crap!! urgh. wanted to get a manicure done as well, but din have time for it.

rushed off to meet jon and ian at raffles city to get some flowers for djas and xiaohui.. the senior jazz band did really great! hope we can be as tight as them one day.

sat at glutton's bay and chatted with the seniors.. it was close to ten and i hadn't had dinner! so jon drove us to newton. and he taught me how to eat this seafood thing called gonggong! haha it was yummy. i must make doreen and jas try it once they're back..

had a krispykreme donut that ian brought along. and guess waht?? bert just dropped by with eleven krispykremes!! arrgh, say hello to fatness and indulgence yo. i think i could do some sharing, seriously.. any takers?

thanks everyone, for checking on me and ensuring i'm alright. i appreciate it all :)

2006-12-09T22:25:00.000+08:00

went to watch weiren's commissioning parade.

i thought we could last.

2006-12-09T00:57:00.000+08:00

christina's birthday dinner at creme bistro :)
christmas lightings! :)
pictures! :)
dessert at coffee club :)
fat pig bel! :(

2006-12-08T15:32:00.000+08:00

dinner with weishieng and the good old sunday school pals at newyork newyork :)
it was fun fooling around with the candyfloss machine! hee
was really a nice night for us to chill at the esplanade roof garden. chatted about many things, and at night i prayed that God would help me change my perspective of things to be more heavenward even before i begin the next semester of challenges.

woke up at close to two today, heh. and did Bible study :) i just wanna do things which i haven't gotten to do in the fifteen weeks of mad rush. and something's gotta change, cos at this rate, i'm never gonna make it thru the next four years.

2006-12-07T02:04:00.000+08:00

ooh love this!!

back from supper with some pals who belong to the eastside. hongkong cafe is one of the biggest ripoffs around. oh, and we spent the entire night discussing AS. heh insight into block b life!

had our very last jazz lesson today.. gotta prepare for an upcoming gig for the smu staff. it's kinda sad to see how time flies.. though i really couldn't wait for this sem to be over. thinking about how i've gotta make new friends, build new projects, prepare for new presentations doesn't project a brighter tomorrow either. sighdums.

2006-12-05T19:18:00.000+08:00

my mum got me my birthday present today...

thankew mum and dad :)

2006-12-04T23:34:00.000+08:00

is there anyone that fails
is there anyone that falls
am i the only one in church today feelin' so small

cos when i take a look around
everybody seems so strong
i know they'll soon discover
that i don't belong

so i tuck it all away, like everything's okay
if i make them all believe it, maybe i'll believe it too
so with a painted grin, i play the part again
so everyone will see me the way that i see them

are we happy plastic people
under shiny plastic steeples
with walls around our weakness
and smiles to hide our pain
but if the invitation's open
to every heart that has been broken
maybe then we close our curtain on our stained glass masquerade

is there anyone who's been there
are there any hands to raise
am i the only one who's traded
in the altar for a stage

the performance is convincing
and we know every line by heart
only when no one is watching
can we really fall apart

but would it set me free
if i dared to let you see
the truth behind the person
that you imagine me to be

would your arms be open
or would you walk away
would the love of Jesus
be enough to make you stay

2006-12-04T02:28:00.000+08:00

happy 19th birthday christina tan poh gek!! :) cheers to five crazy years of friendship! :))

heh, just back from a birthday surprise for ms pohgek at eusoff hall. i wonder how much petrol i burnt sending that silly amanda to and fro. yck is soo out of the way!!

anyway, it's our dear friend's birthday but she has a paper to sit for. thus, the surprise!! which wasn't that successful, but it was cool chilling out in grace's room and chatting.. urgh i miss my girls soo much!!

2006-12-03T21:19:00.000+08:00

so today wasn't so special after all.

void dreams of you&i chasing cars..

yupp anyway, i've been kwite piglet ever since i bade the exams farewell. been getting excessive rest, and a satisfactory dosage of oc daily :) i wanna savour every episode, and yet finish it quickly so i can move on to prison break! hee.

the messages i've been bringing home from bs week after week are really getting increasingly scary. i've heard so much about praying with faith, and stories of how prayers have moved God. yet, i'm taught that God has had a pre-plan from the start, and nothing we can do would change anything.. i've always felt, all those discussions about how God plans to reward / discipline us, how God works and how He's planned everything, to be pointless. all we really need to know is that our duty is to die to our selves, and to live for God. no matter how God went about planning our lives, we just need to know that we are in good hands.

jon invited me for a wesley production next saturday, any takers?

oh yes, christine's having a birthday barbecue at her place on 18dec. will be helping her create a list of people who can go this sunday, so please keep that day free and let me know ya.

was watching asian games on tv, and wondering how the singapore team feels playing against their fellow hometowners - chinaaa.

ayway, i can't wait for my uk friends to be back!! :)

sararara, hope you're having a blast in malaysia, truly asia :)

2006-12-02T22:39:00.000+08:00

more pictures! got them from weijie.. might stink alittle though haha

the gang bang squad [i'm not part of it] haha

starry night!

the tub of absolut pavri we had to down. aeron puked after that haha lousy boy

2006-12-02T22:12:00.000+08:00

some pictures from last night.. will upload the rest onto flickr soon!

shiying&mandy&jordan&sara&i

jordan the birthday boy

the pretty ladies

the block b peeps! .. and i haha

weijie&i

2006-12-02T03:58:00.000+08:00

back from a night of fun! heh. post-exam days have been real good. the only thing that i'm dreading right out now is the results.. i really can't bear to think about the treacherous gpa i'll be facing this sem :( urghh i think i'm just not cut out for uni. can't seem to do well in anything..

music at wala was good, nice choice of songs. from retro, to rock, to soft rock, to reggae! woohoo. they're better than timmy in the sense cos they're definitely more diverse. and probably more mature musicians as well.. but timmy has better stage presence, and probably cos timbre's open-air, the mistakes aren't as obvious. i had kwite a frightful experience at wala's toilet though. this wasted lady was dragging me to the floor and asking me to help her up but i really couldn't and i was soo terrified she was gonna puke on me. and just when i got away to find someone to help, she puked all over herself. ohgawsh.. there were at least 2 wasted women in the toilet mind you, a toilet bowl full of puke, floor full of puke, a basic flooded with puke. it was sooo gross. and they're middle-aged women. what's up yo.

supper at al-azhar after that. the guys were seriously becoming so crappy.
jordan: are you wearing a dangling earring? [my cartilage one]
me: err no, isn't it obvious?
jordan: oh it's a fruit! [it was actually a cherry]
william: huh what fruit?
weijie: fruit as in fruit la, the kind that grow on trees one.. like.. watermelon!
us: wth?! since when did watermelons grow on trees???
bingliang: then what do they grow on?!

haha wth. and they still dare call us girls bimbos.

2006-11-26T22:58:00.000+08:00

exams start like.. TOMORROW. WTH! :(

i've done kwite abit of work for fa already, yet i still feel unprepared. and i keep worrying about this that.. what am i gonna do about the essay question? what if i can't balance the balance sheet? what if my cash flow statement doesn't tally? what if i get a decimal place for my net income?! what if my mcq answer turns out to be 'none of the above'? urghh.

skyping is real cool, and it's become even more useful over the past few days! heh. ohgawsh, can't believe december's just round the corner! used to be the happiest month of the year for me.. i'm not too sure about this year, having to spend the important occasions without my closest people, past / present.. this -161206- needs to be struck out of the calendar this year

i should stop immersing myself in unimportant, and perhaps non-existent sorrow and get back to my revision.

2006-11-26T01:26:00.000+08:00

i just spent my entire night skyping with alex and aeron discussing fa! hahaha oh gawsh, how nerdy can we get?!

ohya i heard about some despicable smu peeps. can you believe it. fancy compiling past-year papers and selling them for 12$ a booklet! yikes. are people in nus and ntu like that too? i'm disgusted.

2006-11-25T11:40:00.000+08:00

enough is enough. urgh.

yesterday i spent a good 12hours in the smu library.. but it wasn't all mugging and no play. weijie and i just couldn't concentrate!! so we walked around the library, and i went to disturb sara's consultation with chinta hahaha. and we were snapping christmas lightings photos over dinner. haha but too much library time's really bad for the head. i came back with a throbbing headache.. this has happened for at least the past 2nights already.

while we were leaving the library at 11+pm last night, alex said he saw people walking into the library with pillows and all, ready to camp there. so the saying goes.. are we really lacking some hall life in smu?

the whole floor outside pick&bite was full of cigarettes. i think the stress is really getting to the smu kids. i wish i could do something to change smu to be more like ac. where the library was actually quiet, and conducive for studying.. where we had a hub, like an entire family studying together. where we could go play captain's ball in the midst of mugging. where we had free dinner, and people were actually more amicable. where there was less ah beng / ah lian language [imagine.. if i were in ntu, i think i would die].. where the cubicles were so lovely, i actually considered koping one to bring home heheh.

thank goodness for me, i've found some really good and helpful friends in smu. and life's not so bad after all cos of them :)) my <3>

2006-11-22T11:30:00.000+08:00

2006-11-20T23:53:00.000+08:00

my eyesight is getting so incredibly bad, i feel like i need to wear my specs permanently now, even though alex always laughs at my specs.. urghh. thanks to all the staring-into laptops!!

sorry guys, photos from starry night aren't up yet.. i feel superr lazy. i was really dying for a run today, but it had to pour..

spent the day in cold marine parade library. nostalgic moments of mugging for a levels days.. spent the entire morning doing a few stupid journal entries, income statement and a balance sheet i couldn't balance!! urgh. well at least i got it balanced in the end.. after like 100000hours!!

thanks guys for all the encouragement :) right now, i'm just kinda stoned. i've been studying.. but i just feel like a very ineffective learner these days. maybe i'm just discouraged by the fact that no matter how hard i study, i might not even do well at the end of the day..

ohwell, thanks to my 'mini fan club' as weijie calls it, for coming down to support me during starry night :) hee really appreciate all the flowers, cheers and photos :)

i discovered something badd. i have a tendency to study till about 3am - the time when i know i could go on forever, yet recognizing the need to sleep even though i don't feel tired. and this is the time when i find it so hard to fall into a deep sleep. that's what happened to me last night..

ohwell america's next top model rocks. danielle's hot. joanie's soo pretty. they've transformed so much :) prettypretty.

life, you haven't been treating me too well..

2006-11-15T02:04:00.000+08:00

i screwed up bizlaw so bad, i was almost in tears. the first bad result of my uni life, and it's beginning to tear me apart already.. i jolly well know i could've done better. urghh, and that's the feeling that sucks most. cos i frickin couldn't finish 50% of the paper due to poor time management. i'm a frickin retard.

wth. i'm gonna study so hard for the end-years. if only human beings never had to feel sleepy.. and there was a better way to save on sleeping time. or perhaps, i should've spent my 8months of freedom hibernating, and stocked up all my energy, such that i wouldn't need to sleep for the entire sem. then during the holidays, i'll go into another hibernation.. tell me, wth am i thinking?!

had the usual tuesday mugging session with aeron and alex in the penthouse gsr in soa. followed by coming home, indulging in lots of tidbits and chocolate, watching oc. if only there weren't so much to worry about in life..

i prayed: God, help me to give all glory to You no matter what the results are.
but now i'm really struggling to do so..

screw it. zzz nites.

2006-11-13T15:58:00.000+08:00

i'm getting highly irritated with myself now. it's a mere 2 weeks away from final-years and i'm still bumming around the house as if it really is the last week of school already. urghh!! somebody please slap me and ask me to wake up my idea..

by now you've learned that you don't have to be alone to feel lonely. 2000 years ago 250 million people populated the earth. now there are more than 5 billion. if loneliness could be cured by the presence of people, then surely there would be less loneliness today. but loneliness lingers.

the question: what will happen to a face in the crowd when it gets too crowded?

arghh! i need to start work.. it's not funny anymore.

2006-11-12T23:19:00.000+08:00

comms presentation!! i'm not freaking out just YET. but i think i will tomorrow morning.

friday night was spent with moses, dinner at california pizza kitchen. i'm in love with the barbecue chicken pizza!! plus the spinach dip thing. some kind of indulgence. and he passed me his new itrip, cos he got his old one working.. yay :))
nvm about the time i got irritated cos i got stuck in a dead-end in the lido carpark and i couldn't get out cos there was way too little space for me to make a 3-point turn. i got pissed off and got out of the car and made him do it for me.

last night, spent kwite sometime on the piano practising something for starry night. i don't wanna embarrass myself :\ today, during cantata practice in church, i got convinced you really do need short nails to play the piano. one of my nails got caught between 2 keys while i was playing some running notes. my finger was red, and my nail chipped :(

just got off the phone with jan, haha stupid lucky girl, just got back from bangkok.. on a FISHING TRIP haha.

omg it's week 13 already everyone.. brace yourselves for the final last lap!!

2006-11-09T22:10:00.000+08:00

wanna see what we do with our oreos??

TWIST
LICK :P
DUNK!
now you ask me, what's up with smu kiddos yo?

2006-11-08T11:37:00.000+08:00

Jesus, what a beautiful name
Son of God, Son of man
Lamb that was slain
joy and peace. strength and hope
grace that blows all fear away
Jesus, what a beautiful name

Jesus, what a beautiful name
truth revealed, my future sealed
healed my pain
love and freedom. life and warmth
grace that blows all fear away
Jesus, what a beautiful name

Jesus, what a beautiful name
rescued my soul, my stronghold
lifts me from shame
forgiveness, security, power and love
grace that blows all fear away
Jesus, what a beautiful name

2006-11-07T12:47:00.000+08:00

at assisi :)

2006-11-07T01:16:00.000+08:00

i've finally resorted to relying on caffeine to stay awake at this hour -_- even after my ten-hour sleep on saturday night, followed by a two-hour nap this afternoon, and just a fifteen-minute power nap minutes ago, nothing seems to be curing my accumulated zzz deficit :\

had crystal jade dinner with the folks at parkway, and finally bought a new pair of pants for presentations :) also, brought the indon friends to east coast park for a night-stroll by the beach.

ltb execution this afternoon at assisi, spoke to a terribly cute eightytwo-year old lady who said to me 'yes, i studied in singapore. my school is called methodist girls school', which resulted in a 'me too!!' from myself. thereafter, she said this to me at least thrice, 'you come from methodist girls school too? very good, very good!', each time completely forgetting she'd said it to me previously already hee.

some of the kids were adorable, and they looked full of energy despite being terminally-ill. their expressions would never have given you a clue.. besides the bald lil heads which gave them away. why the suffering, we ask again? cos of Your justice, o God.. Your punishment for mankind?

i wish i could plonk myself back into bed now.. but no, i need to start preparing for comms presentation!! :\ meeting my uncle tomorrow morning to collect extra info.

i must say i've kinda gained new insight into certain things after an unexpected hour-long phone-chat with shaun last night.. and it's shocking how much a taste of smu living could turn its students' lives upside down..

all i have in mind now is: ZZZ ...

pictures from assisi will be up soon, though i don't really have many :)

2006-11-05T18:14:00.000+08:00

it's been a week since i last updated.
the week's been pretty hectic.. an entire week of fa, picture that.
played daytona with some of the church guys today, good consecutive five / six rounds.. and i actually won one of them :)) reminded me of the time jon drove me home at 150 km/h, and i was clinging to the seatbelt for dear life's sake.
full day of jazz yesterday. we learnt how to do recording! twas fun :) the studio was nice and cozy, for me to fall asleep in the couch ...

caught flushed away with some of the bizlaw friends on friday night after fa quiz :) good relaxing :) the animations were really cute, though i had some trouble deciphering what sort of animals the characters were :\ i mistook a toad for a lizard, and a rodent for a doggie, hee. sem two's timetables were out on thursday night. to my horror, i've got a five-day week next sem, for five mods! i don't suppose block b life would be any better afterall -_- sara that lucky girl, said to me 'i had my first presentation today!' and it's already week eleven.. well, i had my third graded presentation on friday. i've got another two coming up in the next two weeks, so that's five presentations by the end of the semester..

i foresee two very tiring weeks ahead :(
i was soo tired, i went to bed at ten last night. hee.
i think it's hightime i started archiving my photos on an online album, so i shall upload all my photos at the end of each month.. i can't expect my 512 mb memory card to contain more can i? it's a good one month plus to my birthday, but i have kwite an extravagant wishlist already HEE :P

read a really good chapter in one of max lucado's books last night, about fear..
listen to this you guys:
don't measure the size of the mountain; talk to the One who can move it. instead of carrying the world on your shoulders, talk to the One who holds the universe on His. hope is a look away.

why did he say 'hope is a look away'?
cos he wants to remind us, that instead of focussing on the problem, we ought to focus on the solution. and that solution? would be God Himself. so why not just look at God's face, look unto the Cross for help, instead of staring straight at your woes, not knowing how to conquer them?

strength for today and bright hope for tomorrow -
great is Thy faithfulness o Lord..

2006-11-02T00:15:00.000+08:00

more photobooth moments! hee :)
i've got funnier ones of jan, but i chose not to put them up for fear i get killed!! haha

2006-10-30T23:23:00.000+08:00

Sometimes I wonder what lies ahead
How long till my hunger is fed
They say it's hard to make it in this part of town
So many people on this merry-go-round

Some folks try astrology
Some turn to crystal balls
To find an answer,
To get through it all
I just fall on my knees and I try to pray
In the silence I can hear Him say

The river runs and the river hides
Out to the ocean and under the sky
I promise you, the answer will come
Hold on to patience and watch for the sign
Everything in its time

2006-10-28T01:01:00.000+08:00

this is what we do in ltb meetings!!

2006-10-26T23:11:00.000+08:00

me&jan in fa this morning :) hee.
we were frickin bored, one of the most horrible fa lessons ever!!

right now, i'm just tired. from all the coordinating for the jazz band. and i'm elated, that we finally found ourselves a slot for our next lesson! saturday ninethirty-eleventhirty pm, and practice after that eleventhirty-twelve :P it's not too difficult to foresee the embarrassment we're gonna face during auditions this sunday -_-

talk about dreary classes. they cause people to do stupid things -_- like.. msn chats! they're brutal i tell you. so, the wonderful fa classmates set up this msn chat with more than ten participants, and i was trying soo hard to control my laughter thruout the entire lesson! talking about silly things like jioing indian girls, and something else that shall not be disclosed hee.

i laughed soo hard today cos of ms jan lee!! omg. 'bicycle prices.. write them down to market' = riding the bicycles down to the market ?!! what am i gonna do when you're gone :\

bizlaw was sickeningly boring. no more msn chats for entertainment's sake, so i turned to.. chess in my mac! gawsh. jan and alex were playing bejeweled, and the three of us were going on friendster / oasis to check out profiles etc heheh. spies.com.

met jeremy after school, and took the train back with him. which got us talking about him being a mummy's boy. and i was thinking.. it would be terrible to marry one HAHA.

the night's still young as of now, cos i've still got bizlaw assignment to finish. and write the leadcharts for i shot the shariff -_-

2006-10-25T00:40:00.000+08:00

me&denise :)
just got back from fahmy's hari raya party :)

2006-10-24T15:03:00.000+08:00

2006-10-24T02:59:00.000+08:00

twas a night of fun :)

the night started out with asoc day. was okay, though we hardly ate anything cos we went late. the performances were alright, well i got bored after awhile. nothing exciting besides taking pictures. was supposed to go drinking opposite at chijmes, but darren came to pick me, and the fun began...

we had supper at glutton's bay, i really pigged out. with all that satay, rice cubes, cow's lungs, mee soto, hokkien mee, oyster omelette. yumm :)

took a stroll by the bay with darren and wallace after that. getting engaged in frickin funny conversations. discussing the love-hate relationship between wallace and i. where is the love?!!! HAHAHA

drove darren's car after that :) wallace said he'd bring us for a drive, and ohmy, was it one exciting drive. haha i was driving thru this extremely winding road in pasir panjang, but i was soo lagging behind wallace hahaha. then i hopped over to wallace's car and he brought me thru the same route going up to sixty km/h, with the tyres screeching and all, AAAH SHIOK! it was frickin fun i tell you.

went back to wallace's house and moses came over in his vespa. haha my first time riding in his vespa! he brought me one round around the namly estate.. steph, did you hear vroom vroom noises? hee.

went to serene centre to pick up some stuff from bert, sat in wallace's massage chair, and finally darren sent me back :) darren, you're my best friend. hahahaha.

i love my hongkong pals :) if only jas and doreen were here :\

pictures from asoc day will be up soon! :)

2006-10-22T21:01:00.000+08:00

was reading a book by max lucado last night, and came across this story..

dr. donald grey barnhouse told of the occasion of his first wife's death. he and his children were driving home from the burial, overcome with grief. he searched for a word of comfort to offer but could think of nothing. just then, a large moving van drove by. as it passed, the shadow of the truck swept over the car. an inspiration came to dr. barnhouse. he turned to his family and asked, "children, would you rather be run over by a truck or by its shadow?"

the children said, "well, of course, dad, we'd rather be run over by the shadow. that can't hurt us at all."

dr. barnhouse explained, "did you know that two thousand years go the truck of death ran over the Lord Jesus... in order that only its shadow might run over us?"

and i was thinking, how a person could be swayed so easily. how people could put on so many facets to suit the situation around. when will i ever be convicted once and for all.

i have a maker, He formed my heart.. before even time began, my life was in His hands.

as i thought back, and saw how life changed after entering smu.. i felt sad to see how i've distanced from everything i used to be close to. and became attached to new friends and a brand new lifestyle altogether. is this right? i really don't know.

He hears me when i call, this i know.

2006-10-21T22:52:00.000+08:00

adorable ltb friends :)

2006-10-21T16:15:00.000+08:00

we are so cute i can't stand it.
big smiles :)
you're my one and only girl <3

2006-10-19T23:18:00.000+08:00

work is seriously piling again and i guess by now, i've sort of gotten used to smu life. it no longer seems tiring anymore, i'm feeling more routine than ever. like all this hectic nonsense has become part of daily norm, whereas without it, i think it'd actually be weird. i've got a frickin presentation tomorrow, and i haven't even prepared what to say for my slides. i've totally no mood to go and try and deduce what stupid leadership traits we could learn from dear steve jobs, ceo of apple. the deeper i read into his biography, i become less convinced that he could actually make a good leader. and i'm really just screwed for fa :\ i've spent too much of the past week or so on bizlaw, and now i've no idea where to start for fa. i kinda skipped two chapters just to catch up with lessons.

prof gan couldn't stop calling me today. and it's funny how he gives his wide-mouthed stunned look when certain people make stupid comments.. hurrr.

i spent a good twelve hours in school again today :\ ltb meeting was totally inefficient, for the amount of work completed and the quality of it. sigh. somehow, all this talk about synergy and teambuilding doesn't seem to be getting us anywhere. and i heard ltb's supposed to help boost the almighty gpa.

i like my fa group :) even though there aren't any scholars who are frickin kiasu and gungho, we're still moving along at a rather quick pace. no stress at all. perfect working conditions for jan and i :)

i attempted seeking help with configuration for my mac at the cit again today, to no avail of course. they tried chucking me with a dumbass manual and i was quick to reply with an immediate NO. the guy gave some crap excuse about the mac system not fitting in with the smu wlan network. like wth. do something about it. there are so many cool smu kids who use mac! hahahahaha what snob.

ltb all the way, and met aeron to go home together. that stupid boy had some stupid craving for breadtalk chocolate croissant and we had to walk all the way to stamford house only to find that they'd run out. then we had to go to citilink just for it. did you know that the two ascending escalators move at different rates? one's about six steps behind the other haha. and we waited at least half an hour for the cursed bus fourteen. hot, stuffy, crowded, rare :\

and now, i really gotta get my ass down to doing steve jobs! urgh. c'mon bel...

2006-10-18T01:04:00.000+08:00

all the way from london..
yay :)

thanksew bert and jas :))

2006-10-17T22:29:00.000+08:00

urghh throbbing headache and a nose that threatens to fall out anytime. :\
i need some tlc.

2006-10-17T12:32:00.000+08:00

since everyone's been putting up photobooth pictures, here goes.. haha

2006-10-16T18:28:00.000+08:00

someone please, i need an answer.

2006-10-15T23:36:00.000+08:00

don't even talk to me about bizlaw. URGHH. bizlaw can go and die! :\

i just read mich and slow's blogs and i feel soo freaking sad that my term break seems soo un-fun in comparison :( omg. i just realized that i practically spent seventy percent of my break doing bizlaw, another twenty going to school for meetings! and now i still gotta rush my ltb reflective paper and prepare for ltb leadership character presentation! followed by fa presentation the following week. when will this ever end :\

crys' birthday lunch at cartel today :) HAPPY BIRTHDAY CRYS! :) i really haven't gone out with my church friends in superrr long. i miss how the youths used to be so close when i was in sec four. i miss the time we watched italian job together! i miss how the crosslink comm spent so much time together. i miss the times when i had all the energy and time to devote to church stuff.

i miss my jc friends. i miss ac. i miss the happy-go-lucky days. i miss how school was actually fun. unlike noww :(

and i'm freaking ill. thanks to bizlaw. thanks to the haze. thanks to the people around me who were ill. [like my piano kid la!]

just watched infernal affairs! so little footage on edison chen :( but great show nonetheless :) i know i know i need to cut my hair. stupid church guys who were calling my hair a squirrel's tail / mop / messymessmess!

thanks shangwei for the massage! omg. i wanna employ you as my official massage chair! haha. everyone's been telling me about how i've been losing weight :\ my mum's been forcing me to eat more. i think all i need to do is ZZZ MORE. i'm in dire deficit :\

NB: I MISS DOREEN HO RENYAN AND JASMINE GOH JIANMIN :'(

2006-10-15T00:48:00.000+08:00

haha a shocked look while eating our cakes / mudpies :) my long-awaited that boney cake AT LAST..

bel&inez&amanda :)

haha check out greedy amanda with three mudpies!

bizlaw study group! weijie putting his dirty feet on my bed : \

2006-10-13T22:16:00.000+08:00

You have stolen my heart. 
You have stolen my heart.




this can't be happening : \




bizlaw midterms tomorrow :'( i wanna cry.


fiona: he was there doing some despatch work for his camp! haha.

2006-10-09T23:14:00.000+08:00

Light up, light up
As if you have a choice
Even if you can not hear my voice
I'll be right beside you dear

Louder, Louder
And we'll run for our lives
I can hardly speak I understand
Why you can't raise your voice to say

2006-10-08T23:50:00.000+08:00

ltb project :)

saturday night dinner :)

finally some getaway from the mundane smu life. friday night saw me getting super excited going for a movie, even though it was with wallace. hahaha. and darren as well. supper at newton after that. newton looks almost like lagoon! except the food sucks, and lagoon food's actually pass-able. bedok eightyfive's still the best. hee. we watched rob-b-hood. it was a RETARDED show! but it was frickin funny. i laughed until i almost rolled.

saturday morning was ltb project all the way at ulu admiralty :\ yep but it was fun! and the kids were cute and responsive! hee. then church in the afternoon and met up with my favourite friends in the night :) we had vietnamese food at holland v. i was the chauffeur of the night, picking up all of them from their homes. then went to island creamery for icecream! it was my first time. haha i'm like how suaku. wha but the place was seriously crowded. and i finally saw the 'uncle stanley' i've been hearing about.

dropped christina in her ulu home all the way at thomson! haha. okay it's not that ulu actually but her condo's probably one of the darkest and scariest. i had to make this roundabout turn around a tree i could hardly see haha.

and today, well, was just the usual. moses' finally back :) with lots of new clothes for me i hope hahaha.

tomorrow's gonna be a busy day. i better get some studying / packing done tonight. ciao.

2006-10-05T22:21:00.000+08:00

i think busy's just becoming a very valid excuse to get away from most things :\
nono by that i don't mean that it's been a pack of lies. i was truly busy.

so anyway let me tell you about my frightful encounter with a crow attack this morning! omg. I HATE CROWS. i wish for all the crows in singapore to be shot down. what menace bel. haha. so i was stepping out of the gate this morning with my breakfast in hand, and this stupid big fat black crow can swooping like an inch away from my head! i tell you i could've cried on the spot. i was screaming like an idiot cos that stupid crow din do it only once, it did the same thing at least three times. and i was just grabbing my head to make sure no poop would land on my hair. and i just stood there looking helplessly across to the busstop to see if anyone would help me get across to the other side safely. and i began to wonder what the heck about me today attracted the crow. was it the starry pin on my head?! whilst i was standing there analyzing things, that stupid crow was up in the tree staring at me! omg. and then i remembered the breakfast! omg immediately, i went to the nearest longkang and dumped the stupid piece of bread there, and one second later, SWOOP the crow came down and grabbed the bread and went away. OMG CROWS ARE FRICKIN SCARYYYY! :\

i was totally restless during fa today. it's this thing about sitting at the back i tell you. fa meeting after that, followed by a long and nice lunch with the fa groupmates. came home and slept for kwite awhile. went for a short jog in the evening and saw these two kids breaking branches with a hockey stick. sigh violent kids these days. and attempted to read ltb thru the night, but urghss it's not getting me anywhere :\ and nine oclock show is so exciting! thomas ong is kwite hot. hahaha.

i watched project runway last night! now i know why moses likes the show so much. okay he watches for the design, i watch it for the design plus the politics hahaha. i think angela should've gone out! i felt kwite sad for the gay guy. he reminds me of johnny depp as willy wonka haha.

k back to ltb :\

2006-10-04T14:59:00.000+08:00

i slept for close to three hours! omg. this is the ultimate ultimate rest day after a whole week of torture. i really felt like just throwing all my work aside and getting someone to go catch a movie today! but nvm. i shall wait for moses to be back from texas :) and make him watch all the movies with me during recess week! oh oh how i can't wait!

but then again, there's the stupid ltb mcq test this friday :\ gawsh i haven't touched my effective leadership text since i bought it! and fa's killing me! omg i frickin can't balance the stupid balance sheet. and i promise i WILL go jogging in the evening. i must i must. my discipline's slipping away in every manner. i have no mood for anything. and i totally haven't been going for all the asoc meetings. there's really no time for anything. even if i had spare time, it should be spent more wisely zzz-ing :)

went for cf last night though, the message was good and applicable :) everything that God has been teaching me seems to be pointing at one thing: that i need to realize my sole purpose and calling........ to be a christian.

and dinner after that was crappy but fun :) haha the cf-ers are seriously nonsensical.

and oh how i can't wait to start watchin oc from season one! yes i'm gonna be watching oc instead of studying for bizlaw midterms during recess hahaha. speaking of which i'm terribly worried. and i just don't think that bizlaw's something i'm gonna ace.

oh well but for now, it's time to study for ltb :(

2006-10-03T11:10:00.000+08:00

i don't fancy tuesdays much. bizlaw class at threethirty, and i sorta feel like my mornings always go to waste. and i need to stop being lazy and start exercising so bad. i spend my late nights munching on mooncakes and chocolates, and when it's time to jog, i change into my gear and decide i'm too lazy so i change out of it and go eat dinner instead. :\

have you ever felt like life has become so well-predicted and organized that it becomes directionless? paradoxical i know.

i really need to reflect more upon what was taught during bs last sunday. and allow someone more worthy than i am to control my life. someone who will never lead me in the wrong direction.

2006-10-01T23:56:00.000+08:00

i love sd2! :)

2006-09-28T19:43:00.000+08:00

i hate having to stand just one junction away from the admin building, having to watch my dear bus no fourteen pass me by, just cos the frickin green man refuses to appear.

i've no idea why i'm so nerve-wrecked about fa quiz! omg. i think it's gotta do with the idea of first test of the year haha. and i better better passs!!

jan and audrey were terribly funny people today. haha they're the only 'things' that brighten up dreary thursday morning fa classes :\

2006-09-26T23:01:00.000+08:00

bizlaw's finally over :)
but there's still the written report to rush over the weekend :\
and also fa quiz on friday :\
plus bazaar stall to tend to tomorrow :\
and asoc meeting in the night :\
plus jazz for four hours on saturday :\
i think i'm spending too much time in that office-like building along stamford road. especially the one that says 'lee kong chian school of business' even though i don't belong there :\

but anyway tonight's gonna be a rest&relax night for me [the night ends in approximately an hour], and after that i gotta start studying for fa :( i'm majorly lagging behind and the guys around are seriously scaring me. last saturday night i met my fa groupmate, aeron on the train, and he was going for dinner at orchard with his fa textbook. omg.

so anyway, our majorly embarrassing bizlaw video turned out to be rather impressive, and the prof wants to buy it from us to be used as future teaching material! haha. i was so embarrassed i couldn't even bear to watch it.

no more camping in school till twelve at least for tomorrow and thursday night i hope. and i can foresee us camping at james' place overnight this friday to rush the written report. i think i don't have a life. i haven't seen moses for the longest time :\

2006-09-24T23:05:00.000+08:00

2006-09-23T01:43:00.000+08:00

i just read shangjun's post on 'if youre thinking of coming to law school..', someone should write one on 'if youre thinking of coming to smu..'. yesterday saw my very first time staying in school till twelve am, when school closed, preparing for our bizlaw presentation. i can't emphasize how frickin torturing it got, both physically and mentally. urghhs. i think after this sem, i'm gonna be terrified of law for the rest of my life. haha. and yet, part of me actually loves the challenge. even though fa and bizlaw are the heaviest mods this sem, they're still my favourite.

and it was shaun's birthday yesterday! haha poor boy, imagine staying in school the entire day on your twentysecond.. we surprised him with a cake though :) thanks bert for getting the cake :) thanks moses for picking me up from school at midnight :)

ltb's the most relaxing class ever. haha. we played broken telephone games today, frickin hilarious. i laughed till i cried. haha. 'your voice is as sweet as ... BUTTERFLY' haha crappppp.

stayed back for awhile to listen to huikoen's recording, hope she wins the song-writing competition. haha :)

i think i'm kwite a road hazard. haha. everytime my dad encounters a bad driver, he makes this comment: 'i think they passed with eight points too'. very directly shooting me, sheesh. but practice makes perfect right? haha drove to sarah's place today and almost got lost in a very ulu old holland. it could get scary. and then drove amanda back to her ulu house after that .. 'turn left, turn right, turn left, turn right, turn left'. five turns altogether. haha.

yummy dinner prepared by sarah :) haha. it was kwite a pathetic small group of six of us today :( compared to the past, when we could barely squeeze around the dining table :( and after sarah and bev leaves .. :'(

i should go sleep, cos i've got guess what. bizlaw meeting tomorrow morning. omg bizlaw's territorized my whole life!

2006-09-20T03:23:00.000+08:00

it's an unearthly threesixteen am now and i'm online cos of ...

JASMINE GOH JIANMIN! :)

i can't reiterate how much i love skype :)

2006-09-18T23:50:00.000+08:00

i uploaded a good 1006 jazz tracks from ben and i'm listening to the sixth song on the list. haha. and then while i read ryan's blog, this 'as the deer' piano solo pops out and i was wondering what kinda abstract jazz song is that man? haha.

it's frickin elevenfortyfour now and i just got home from bizlaw meeting not long ago. what kinda hip and happening smu life is this.

i did horribly for my very first comms assignment. sickening. i'm getting worried.

headed down to chinatown to get some stuff for our bazaar stall with the ltb people. isaac is frickin funny when he drives, probably just a little better off than me. all the 'crap did i lock my car?', 'turn left or turn right!', 'urgh was that the erp!', 'i can't park here, i can't see!', 'aah i haven't taken out my key' .. haha

bizlaw meeting in the night. the question today was soo complicated! i gave up thinking after awhile. but the video was so funny la, my prof is seriously very cute. haha. ohh and i saw our dear renault in the smu carpark today! haha cos ren drove it to school i think. i feel happy when i see it :) even though it's not the most comfortable, nicest-smelling, best-conditioned car, i still love it to bits cos of all the memories :)

so as weijie and shaun walked me to the busstop after bizlaw, they started comparing girls in year one and year two .. and yada, you should know the rest.

i'm frickin tired, no napping today. but i need to read bizlaw.. grr.

2006-09-17T23:43:00.000+08:00

i just talked and webcammed with doreen for about an hour thru skype :) i love skype! :)
she showed me to her room and the view from her room [actually i forced her to haha], and it was kwite funny cos the thing lags by about three seconds and we took awhile to get used to the delayed laughters haha. then her friend came to visit her, so i met her friend thru webcam too haha. omg i miss her so much :(

2006-09-17T21:59:00.000+08:00

Lord i offer my life to You
everything i've been thru
use it for Your glory

2006-09-17T00:32:00.000+08:00

deb's birthday dinner at marmalade pantry :)
the picture looks so funny right? val's bright idea for us to stand behind the mirror thing, i was trying so hard to tiptoe haha. and then all the magazines fell on the floor and he blamed it all on me!
and then there was this whole talk about deb and her camera which has bust-enhancement effects HAHA

dinner with moses at the noodle house in park mall :)
before sending alicia off :(
I HATE GOING TO THE AIRPORT.

2006-09-14T23:31:00.000+08:00

I HAVE A SUDDEN CRAVING
for that bony cake or wahtever from nydc! omg arghs i wanna eat it! hahaha. okay i sound like a maniac.

after all the send-offs, everyone has been asking me 'are you feeling better?' and i feel even more stupid cos i'm not even the one flying off but i'm the one crying the most. HMM. and jas' mum had to turn around and comfort me when her daughter's the one who's flying off hahaha. and i promised jas to go visit her poor lonely grandma, omg haha. call myself her pseudo-boyfriend ...

today i finally understood some parts of fa. omg i'm really hopeless at accounting .. call myself an accountancy student. even though bizlaw's very sickening, but it's kinda fun when you actually understand how to apply the concepts and look at the cases from different dimensions. which i'm still hoping to achieve of course. haha and my bizlaw project group's a whole lot of fun! we always end up talking rubbish during our meetings haha.

tomorrow's gonna be my very first presentation in smu! a non-graded ltb presentation haha. should be fun, and i'm only doing like one slide anyway haha. oh and my ltb group's setting up a stall during smu bazaar! so if anyone has any supplies of stocks you wanna sell, let me know k! we can discuss about the profit splits from there. the earnings are gonna go into our comm service project btw, so it's all for charity! haha.

finally, i really miss my girls alot! and it doesn't help that jas hasn't written to me yet after so long! i've never checked my hotmail as much as i do now. haha.

oh yes, and i'm so happy with singapore's choice regarding the final two in singapore idol :) i think hady's the best, but i really like jonathan! but nvm, i'll be happy no matter who wins :)

2006-09-13T17:44:00.000+08:00

because of you, I CAN'T WAIT FOR DECEMBER TO COME! hahaha :)

2006-09-13T14:55:00.000+08:00

cause all of the stars
are fading away
just try not to worry
you'll see them some day
take what you need
and be on your way
and stop crying your heart out

2006-09-12T12:22:00.000+08:00

"we're sinners, every one of us, in the same sinking boat with everybody else" Rom 3:19

2006-09-11T10:53:00.000+08:00

alicia's farewell dinner :)

2006-09-08T23:24:00.000+08:00

omg it's so scary how people have been complaining about smu and contemplating transferring to ntu where life is supposedly less stressful and competitive. urghs i think every single soul in smu needs to take a step back and enjoy your uni days! damnit. i don't remember reading up for lectures in jc, i don't remember having to keep thinking about questions to ask during classes, i don't remember worrying about how the teachers may think of me or whether they even notice me. ARGHS.

and it really doesn't help that my most beloved friends are leaving or have left me.

there's too much that i don't understand, but i just gotta trust and get on with it.

no more gymming at pines.
no more swimming at pines.
no more wearing shades and posing together walking down orchard road.
no more road trips in the renault picnic.
no more complaining about 'hair in the sushi' at sakae.
no more mahjong.
no more walks to east coast park.
no more high-tea buffets at goodwood.
no more joking and laughing about hongkong trip.
no more timbre outings :(
no more suppers at al-ameen.
no more gang-ups against wallace.
no more freeloading at cafe twooneone.
no more cell meetings at wallace's house.
no more hongkong gang :(

but there's still ..

THREE BEST FRIENDS FOR ETERNITY :)

2006-09-07T23:43:00.000+08:00

King of Majesty
i have one desire
just to be with You my Lord

2006-09-06T23:40:00.000+08:00

YOU'LL BE DEARLY MISSED :'( <3 friends for life.

2006-09-05T12:17:00.000+08:00

some pictures from the past week! :)

high tea at goodwood park! :) -bimbo jassie!

smu bash! jan&jas&inez&bel&mel&sara

muah*

besties forever :) jas&doreen&bel

me&inez

me&mylovelysara

the stupid girl who's going away :'( -farewell dinner at bevs place!

i'm gonna miss you terribly :'(

sentosa! :)

the one who wants to be the oriental beauty at king's haha

AWW*

the guys went to pluck a coconut from the tree and with much effort, trying to open it so we could have some coconut juice HAHA

stupid guys trying to imitate my side profile! khengsiang&bel&justyn

me&monkeyzhisheng -farewell dinner at cafe twooneone

moses&i :)

2006-08-28T19:34:00.000+08:00

communications class today was good. nice and slack, just talking cock. haha which permitted me to finally speak up in class! yay i'm proud of myself :)

today was a hectic day. had too many errands to run. was supposed to go collect my tertiary ezlink, only to find it wasn't ready yet. then had to meet jeremy to collect stuff, go draw money, check out the bizcom booth but i decided to order my bash ticket with inezs og after all. and finally met christine at the gym, and ran alittle. oh gawsh it was so pathetic. jas dropped by with my very pretty laptop sleeve :) thanks dear. took a quick shower cos weiren was waiting for me outside the gym already. after we had already crossed the road from lkcsb, i found out i left my poor laptop sleeve behind in the gym! so poor weiren had to carry my very heavy bag and walk all the way back with me. haha thank goodness i found it!! lunch at fish&co after that. a very heavy lunch which put me into a deep sleep once i got home. im still thinking about whether i should go shower hahaha. i better go prepare for bizlaw class now.

2006-08-27T18:50:00.000+08:00

"give your entire attention to what God is doing right now, and don't get worked up about what may or may not happen tomorrow. God will help you deal with whatever hard things come up when the time comes" matt 6:34

the key is this: meet today's problems with today's strength. don't start tackling tomorrow's problems until tomorrow. you do not have tomorrow's strength yet. you simly have enough for today.

2006-08-26T23:14:00.000+08:00

SATURDAY and finally i've got nothing on, so i could go down for alpha! FINALLY.
yesterday was vivace. signed up for like a million and one ccas, and it really got sooo tiring trying to squeeze thru the crowd, watch out for each other in case one of us went missing, listen to the cca ambassadors talk to us about their ccas, writing our names and emails on pieces of paper while lugging our bags, books, and laptops with us, trying to shout over the samba masala noise. i went home with a headache after that.

school's really getting kwite scary. come tuesday, it's terrifying business law again. come thursday, would be my very first ltb project group meeting. urghs.

last night, i made moses go down to timbre with me. gawsh i actually miss listening to timmy. even though they're not the most fantastic band around, buti really love to hear them play. i'm still amazed by how tight the band members are, and how they sound good almost all the time. they know each other's styles so well and compliment each other so well, even covering up mistakes for each other. moses ordered a cranberry juice and i got a sex on the beach, and even after instructing the waiter to allocate the drinks to us as above, he gave moses the cocktail and me the juice. sheesh. bumped into matt there, his hair has grown kwite abit since the last time i saw him! at timbre too haha.

alpha today! we had lots and lots of food. and i feel really bad, that i'm supposed to be a facilitator and yet i don't really know much about the progress of the programme and stuff. but i thought the sessions today were not bad, and our discussion was actually pretty fruitful :)

oh yes before alpha, i had a terrifying parking experience. i almost scratched the car, and had to call shangjun to my rescue! haha.

after alpha we went back to childhood play that never failed to amuse a bunch of people with nothing to do. play all the stupid fuzzywuzzy, what time is it?, johnny johnny whoosh, how many mehmehs jumped over the wall and what-nots! haha but it was really fun and elroi seriously never fails to amuse me.

chilled out at starbucks cathay after that.

saturday night and i'm trigger happy uploading lots of songs into my comp from lucy's very cool hard disk :) and of course typing on my extremely cool macbook :) heehee.

the focus is GOD. remember that bel. GOD. not academics, not friends, not popularity. but GOD.

2006-08-25T21:29:00.000+08:00

the asoc group :)

2006-08-25T21:23:00.000+08:00

pictures from asoc camp :)
gawsh. that stupid ugly candid photo of me was all over the asoc booth as well as the circle ppt presentation! urgh i'm so embarrassed.

2006-08-24T17:41:00.000+08:00

ANYONE WHO NEEDS / KNOWS ANYONE WHO NEEDS A MICROSOFT OFFICE SOFTWARE FOR MAC PLEASE CONTACT ME! I'VE GOT A SPARE ONE WHICH I'M WILLING TO SELL FOR NINETY DOLLARS.

2006-08-24T17:28:00.000+08:00

i'm using my macbook! oh gawsh can someone tell me why blogger looks so weird on a macbook?! like i can't change my fonts anymore! :( nevertheless, i'm happy with my mac :) despite me being stuck in school for a good three hours trying to get it configured. no the process isn't that long, but it just isn't helpful that even the cit people in smu aren't familiar with mac. it was actually a diy thing, but it got complicated so i went down to the helpdesk. and the helpdesk queue was frickin long. i was supposed to meet christine for lunch, and so she suggested let's just do it ourselves. hahaha so yes we did and it was actually kwite alright, cos christine's a whole lot cleverer than i am haha. after lunch we headed to one of the project rooms in the library and sat there for about an hour doing everything. then we got stuck at loading the microsoft word part, so i brought it down to the helpdesk again, thank goodness there was no queue this time. i think i almost fell asleep waiting for the microsoft word to load after that. yikes. i was so so tired i was fast asleep on the bus ride home! haha but nvm i consider myself kwite clever, unplugging the ethernet from my pc and connecting it to my mac :) and also loading the software and everything GAWSH. what a nightmare afternoon i've just had, for my beloved mac. oh and when i came home, i tried to tap on my neighbour's wireless! haha but they're too clever, one needed password and the other i just couldn't hack in. sigh.

had financial accounting class this morning, i kwite like it. it's pretty comprehensive and interesting and the professor's this old funny guy who could get pretty worked up at times hahaha. it was definitely alot less intimidating than business law.

okay so i'm teaching piano to a seven year old acs boy from church :) he's damn cute la. yesterday was the first lesson, though i have to say i almost vomited blood teaching him, but he's still cute, and i'm getting paid very well for this so i don't mind :) and also i get to drive to work on my own :)

met moses for dinner last night at pizza hut marina square. pizza hut's way overpriced la, for the quality of food they give :\ shopped around and bought a cute red top from topshop :) i'm still searching for a school bag! i hope unice can get me a discount for THAT BAG! haha. bought some stuff from ig's heaven too cos they're having very good discounts! then went over to his place to watch singapore idol. after hady sang his first malay song, moses' mum made a very cute comment 'eh moses you go and join idol la. i'll cry and help you win votes also' HAHAHA

everyone dreams of being that perfect girl, but how much do we have to sacrifice to be so 'perfect'. and really is there such a thing as perfect.

2006-08-22T11:46:00.000+08:00

yesterday was my FIRST DAY AT SCHOOL! :)
eeks but we only had like an hour of lesson. introductions.. name school interesting fact about myself YADA YADA YADA
but the prof gave out a huge stack of articles to be read, and i've read like four sets out of six, of which there's this terribly cheem and uncomprehensive set on second persona ?!!! yikes.
while i was jogging at the park connector yesterday, this man stopped me and asked me how far was the run from east coast road to changi road [which is the route i take all the time] and i realized i really had no idea. i think i should go find out soon haha.
and not to mention, i also saw a drunk old man peeing by the side of the road ...

this morning i woke up to a terribly foul smell, cos my mum's using the traditional method of making soup with the claypot and charcoal.
but anyway i'm kwite glad :) cos jan and i found out that we have the exact same timetable! so at least i've got a friend to go to every class with :)
business law class later at threethirty. it's apparently kwite a difficult module. study hard i will.
urgh there's so much more that needs to be done!

cultivate a mountainously high level of discipline, which will be subject to deterioration over the next four years heehee
be more confident! all for the sake of class participation marks
get my laptop! and have it configured
learn how to use the damned boss system
join a cca

so anyway, HAPPY NINETEENTH BIRTHDAY MICHELLE GOH! :)

2006-08-20T23:12:00.000+08:00

convocation :)

2006-08-20T23:02:00.000+08:00

weekend getaway part three
at mos

2006-08-20T22:45:00.000+08:00

weekend getaway part two
slumber manicure party at unice's :)

2006-08-20T22:41:00.000+08:00

weekend getaway part one

2006-08-18T11:35:00.000+08:00

you came, you saw, you conquered.. everyone
and i'm left here guessing
oh what went wrong
yeah, i'm down
but not out, and far from done
hey all!
beware criminal

2006-08-17T23:24:00.000+08:00

omg it's so frickin sickening. the best singer in singapore idol got kicked out. YIKES

i should've long given up on singapore idol i know. it makes my blood boil.

2006-08-17T14:05:00.000+08:00

it's been a long time! sorry for the major delay, but i've been so packed with camps and what-nots renovations in my room! my room's been in a disastrous mess for a good three weeks already, and cos of that my comp got unplugged and i haven't got to touch a keyboard for about a week already i think.

so anyway, freshmen's orientation camp was alright. not fabulous, but fine alrights. haha i know i don't sound very convincing, but ya i really can't bring myself to say i've had a blast haha. but it was still a good experience :)

so what've i been doing these days, besides begging my mum everyday to let me drive the car out alone?? [no i haven't succeeded yet!] oh ya, i forgot to mention my journey in comfort driving centre's officially over! I EARNED MYSELF A CLASS THREE LICENCE! joy to the world. hee

i loved yesterday :) cos we had a hongkong gang outing, though not the full gang but i'm just thinking, we really won't get to do this often anymore after doreen and jas leave :'( and guess waht, the whole hongkong gang can drive! haha everytime we moved from one place to another, we'd have a different person in the driver's seat heehee. and we seriously did cover kwite a huge area of singapore yesterday. prancing from ikea to queensway to suntec to bel's home. then the rest pranced off to holland v then to the prata house and back to bel's home to pick me up hee. we ended the day with supper at grapevine serangoon :) yummy taiwanese chicken and peach smoothie :)

went over to jas' place while the rest headed home and watched her sis' friends play poker till almost dawn haha. i'm gonna miss you very dearly my baibaipangpang friend :(

the class schedules are out! but i'm still mighty lost, cos sara and i have got very different schedules :( i need to find a friend! :(

some random shots below over the past few weeks!

amanda&i

waimay's farewell lunch at her place! very intricately prepared by her mummy :)
bel&jas&bev who are both leaving for london soon :'(
ipho appreciation dinner at ntu alumni house. inez&i&rachel -greenredgreen CHRISTMAS! :)
moses&i, supper at holland v
bel&waimay&doreen
grace&i :) the nice one who isn't leaving
kevin&i
colin&i -ipho reunion at amirah's grill
cryspina&christina&fahmy&i&audrey&grace :)
bus five! bel&nurul&bonnie&renuka&shirin&andre&junyi

:) happy holidays for the remaining FOUR days!

2006-08-02T23:05:00.000+08:00

monday

terrible terrible driving lesson .. 'make all the mistakes you can day' as my instructor named it
very cute double surprise dinner in the night with the mg gang
fun time making photo collages and decorating steph's and grace's eusoff rooms for their birthday surprises :)
very yummy dinner prepared by sarah :)
incredibly funny time seeing the birthday girls frantically preparing the surprise for the farewell girls upstairs
AND the farewell girls frantically preparing the surprise for the birthday girls downstairs
HAHAHA
so that makes two very fattening but extremely delicious pieces of cakes for the night :)

tuesday

fareast shopping with unice
cute dresses which totally din fit me :( like maternity dresses, SERIOUSLY.
sakae lunch with the girls :)
lakehouse! with inez, unice and jeffrey :)
more shopping! got a cute and cheap top from forever twenty one. somewhat similar to the ones i bought from hongkong though.

wednesday

stupid waste of time career services talk at smu
our group won a prize! which i left behind i think haha
speaking of which, i almost lost my phone today! phew.
lunch at hog's breath with the asoc og! :)
lots and lots of incessant chatting!! and laughing at eugene heheh.
very heavy and sinful lunch of a grilled steak sandwich set meal :(
taught piano after that! :)
more shopping with unice in the evening! haha.
lift back to telok kurau from jeffrey.
nice long evening walk back home from telok kurau, thank goodness it was cool and windy!

2006-07-30T22:48:00.000+08:00

God - our Shepherd - doesn't check the weather; He makes it. He doesn't defy gravity; He created it. He isn't affected by health; He has no body. Jesus said, "God is spirit" [John 4:24]. since He has no body, He has no limitations - equally active in cambodia as He is in connecticut. "where can i go to get away from Your spirit?" asked david. "where can i run from You? if i go up to the heavens, You are there. if i lie down in the grave, You are there" [ps 139:7-8]

2006-07-30T00:44:00.000+08:00

back from asoc camp!
it wasn't too bad actually :)

ipho reunion earlier tonight and simin told me about the spanish 'boyfriend' who apparently proposed to me with this bangle, and after that gave an identical one to rachel! hahaha so here goes our msn convo.

lost in Your love says:
i heard about the bangle
lost in Your love says:
i'm not the only one!
Incognita-Nadie es más ciego que el que no ve lo evidente-y yo no soy ciego, soy tuerto- says:
Incognita-Nadie es más ciego que el que no ve lo evidente-y yo no soy ciego, soy tuerto- says:
but you took it, so...
Incognita-Nadie es más ciego que el que no ve lo evidente-y yo no soy ciego, soy tuerto- says:
i had two bangles, one went to you and the other to rachel, because she won mrs ipho
Incognita-Nadie es más ciego que el que no ve lo evidente-y yo no soy ciego, soy tuerto- says:
but don't worry, only you are my real love

hahaha he's sooo cuteee!

it was good catching up with the ipho people :) and the place was kwite nice too, just alittle too crowded so i much preferred staying out in the balcony spending romantic time with my darling pohgek hahaha. took the train back with fahmy and i spent like half the time teasing him haha.

so anyway back to asoc camp, no pictures! oops cos my camera was with ethel and i don't think i would've brought it anyway.

i'm super sleep-deprived. KO.

ooh and HAPPY BIRTHDAY GRACE & JINGMIN! :):):):):):)

2006-07-26T23:27:00.000+08:00

okay i'm here to say bye for three days! haha camp tomorrow till saturday. i'm still not looking forward to it, but i hope i'll be back to say i've had a blast. haha see you soon! :) love.

2006-07-25T23:14:00.000+08:00

had a pre-camp dinner with my og people last night. then hung out in the smu concourse for awhile. i still don't really see myself actually attending seminars and tutorials in the office-like building! hahaha oh dear.

and my entire toilet's gone :( they wrecked it down and poof. there's dust everywhere! i'm gonna zzz in the guest room tonight :( i'm actually typing in layers and layers of dust hahaha.

had a nice starbucks breakfast with shangjun this morning. it was nice :) haha another part of my taitai lifestyle. then we WALKED to simlim from city hall! haha the taitai life ended there. and shangjun is such a guniang! omg. he's the only other person, besides my mum, who would stand like a metre behind the traffic light junction just so he can hide in the shade. yep checked out the notebooks and i've more or less made up my mind. had lunch after that at the simlim foodcourt. which made me feel kwite queasy after that.

went for a run in the evening. a very very very short run hahaha. nvm better than nothing. and i really need to stay up and pack for camp! urghh my room's in a total mess and i can't imagine, come tomorrow it'll be worse!

oh and one of my og people said i looked malay! :(

and btw, HAPPY BIRTHDAY JUSTYN TAN EUWEN! :)

2006-07-23T22:17:00.000+08:00

three weeks ago, i was doing my last-minute packing before moving into ulu ntu. two weeks ago, it was the opening ceremony! one week ago was the closing ceremony followed by the farewell banquet at neptune :( sigh time flies.

i just wanna stand on my balcony and shout 'I MISS IPHO!'

sorry you've had to tolerate this nonsense for a week and it's still going on..

and it's funny how i'm seriously getting an overload of ipho emails in my gmail inbox! hahaha and everyday i just get very excited about checking my gmail inbox cos of all these emails! thankew slos :)

sigh there's accountancy camp this coming week and i'm not exactly looking forward to that. was supposed to start some packing tonight and i'm just totally un-excited about the camp. actually it sort of reminds me of how much i was dreading parting with my bed for two weeks and setting off for ntu during the training days. and now it's funny how i wish everything never had to come to an end haha.

i've sort of decided that i'm gonna quit teaching piano but i'm still contemplating how exactly i should break this news to my manager.

so anyway i finally caught pirates with weiren last night! it was good, a bit draggy and pointless at some parts, but johnny depp's still good nonetheless and keira knightley's still hot hahaha. and the snippet after the credits was unbeatable la hahaha. and you should've seen the way weiren and i were looking for his car, going to every storey, running out and pressing the remote control hahaha.

off to timbre after that to meet the sd pals after but the music sucked so bad!! wallace was laughing cos i was making uncontrollable funny faces. urgh they really should do something about their saturday band. whoever said the saturday band was comparable to timmy?! he / she must be a cock-eared fool haha.

so we really had to leave after finishing our pizza [thankfully that was good!] for .. al-ameen's! hahaha we are seriously such pigs it's disgusting. had a milo dinosaur and the mint chicken kebabs thing [yummy!] :) there were so many ac peeps there last night, i think al-ameen should hang an ac flag in their shop soon. all the loyal acsian patronizers.

had bible study in church today, and it was funny cos we were trying to teach christine how to write simple chinese words like 'chi' as in eat. haha.

lunch after that with moses at sakae, we seriously pigged out again! forty bucks worth of sushi shared amongst the two of us cos he always takes all the premium plates! and swensen's after that [OMG!]. came home for a nap, regardless of the sins i'd committed, and woke up feeling incredibly guilty so i went for a light run. which din really help much, but it's better than nothing.

i shall be a nice daughter and go watch tv with my parents now haha. the renovators are coming tomorrow! urgh. it's gonna be such a mess cos they're starting with my room. my tv's already shifted to the guest room, and soon my comp's gonna be shifted to the living room and then my wardrobe's gonna be shifted too and soon i'll be sleeping in the guest room! :( nvm tolerance.

2006-07-21T23:36:00.000+08:00

bel&sara *much of love

sending my team off at the aiport!

omg OUCHH!!! :(

haha clever me just fell smack on my bum / tail bone. it's so PAINFULLL!! :(

so the story began when i found a very dry / scaly looking lizard in my bathroom, so i used the shower hose to spray it and it almost jumped onto me! so i backed off and it went hiding behind my toilet bowl. then i continued with my shower and was wrapping the towel around myself when i saw the lizard jump out of nowhere again! so i quickly opened the door and tried to hop back into my room. and i stepped on the stupid floormat in my room and FELL SMACK!! i was wailing for help i tell you, all cos of the stupid lizard! urgh i swear i'd kill it if i ever see it again.

so anyway i caught nacho libre with sara yesterday! and it SUCKS. wth please don't watch it. had dinner at moses' place, then the very kind us brought sara out for supper at al-azhar's after singapore idol! haha. :) and guess what. COINCIDENCES DO HAPPEN. haha doreen and james were at al-ameen's at the exact same time! haha then over to sara's place after that for some chit-chatting, and i challenged james at a game of CHESS but lost miserably hahaha

a very complicated process, before we finally got back to my house! just doreen, jas and i again :) hee and kevin came over for a game of mahjong! and i lost miserably again. grr.

ZZZ .. finally .. at five am! trotted down to town in the afternoon for some shopping and i bought new nail polish :) the cheapo one from the face shop hahaha. met up with my ipho bus five peeps for dinner :) haha kwite funny cos they all took turns to call up the ipho coordinators complaining about missing delegates, muslim delegates who needed to find places to pray, blah blah haha. talk about NOSTALGIA! :( we couldn't stop ranting.

church at night for a time of prayer and thanksgiving for alpha youth. tomorrow's my very first session, whilst still in a very lost state. hope everything goes fine!

CRAP but my butt really hurts.

2006-07-19T16:08:00.000+08:00

omg i spent the past few days checking out the official ipho website, glimpsing thru photos from arrivals to neptune court banquet :( and also reading random blogs by typing in 'ipho' in the blogger search engine [YES I KNOW I'M VERY CUNNING!] hahaha. it was so nice just receiving emails from ipho people all over again [i used to get very stressed seeing ipho emails in my gmail inbox] but now i wish inez, jac and ruimin could flood my inbox once again :( omg i sound so emo and that's so not me! hahaha oh well, i guess it's always hard to leave another part of your life behind and having to start all over again as you move into another phase. come tomorrow, and i promise i'll be forward-looking! next event up would be the accountancy camp 26-28jul, and ipho reunion on 29th! :) i'm so very looking forward to that.

and i really can't wait to get my driving licence! URGH

2006-07-19T15:58:00.000+08:00

2006-07-18T12:24:00.000+08:00

christina's funny delegate who printed his name the other way round hahaha

me&inez :) -dinner at barker
me&christina -at the bus bay
dinner at occ! :) one of the best nights ever
colin&i
the spanish guys&us haha
grace&kevin&waimay&i
us mg ladies :):)
me&fahmy!

my spanish 'boyfriend' hahahaha
the slos :)
sentosa beach games

the turkish and turkmenistanis
at the musical fountain
more ndp pictures!

there were so much fireworks this year!

the tom-cruise-look-alike! haha
us and the crazy bulgarians!

2006-07-17T23:13:00.000+08:00

some photos from ndp and farewell banquet. heh more will up later.

everyone going trigger high after ndp

at the closing ceremony :(
neptune court dinner
me&andre&waimay
howard the funny guy&i

2006-07-17T22:18:00.000+08:00

yayy i'm back!!

ipho experience was truly amazing. oh well, i'm stuck here in an overwhelmed feeling of nostalgia, trying hard to get out of it and face reality again.. no more play bel, what i need to face: driving test! URGH. uni preparations. back to piano teaching. going to church.

ipho passed by oh too quickly :(

sigh

my team hasn't gone back to kuwait yet btw, so i'm gonna be crawling up in the wee hours of the morning to send them off later. hopefully moses can fetch me hahaha

i've made so many new friends in ipho, so many friendships forged that will never be forgotten :) i love the fellow slos to bits and we are so so united :) the delegates have been a really fun bunch too, though they do get on our nerves at times. but oh well, all our experiences would never have come true if not for them :)
i think everyone's had way too much fun during ipho even though it was supposed to be a physics olympiad which sounds so nerdy hahaha. last night saw all the crazy bulgarians and greeks in the lounge drinking, smoking and partying away, while us, slos tried to stay far far away from all that chaos. with much effort, cos everytime one of us walked past the lounge the whole group of crazy drunkards would be chanting 'slo slo slo slo!' it was kwite scary actually, but we din really bother with them since it was gonna be their last night here anyway. sigh :(

i came home and slept for six hours straight, omg talking about being exhausted.

alright pictures will be up soon! :)

2006-06-28T19:14:00.000+08:00

DINNER AT SAKAE :)

welcome back unice!

went for my auto lesson today, woohoo oh so fun!! the car's so smooth and noise-less! and i could perfect my slope and parallel parking today! yayy! alright reality check, friday's back to manual time again. but it was kwite funny cos the instructor kept laughing at how my left foot was itching to come up and step on the non-existent clutch pedal.. haha and the response whatever thingy was kwite fun! hee aah i need to go back and collect my a levels cert soon! before they make me pay the ten dollar fine :( and i think i'm finally feeling the ipho excitement hahaha. i emailed the kuwait leader today hee, and i actually glanced thru the packing list! okay i will start packing either tonight / tomorrow! fun fun :)

2006-06-26T20:32:00.001+08:00

perhaps falling sick's really the way to go.
to run away from everything, take my medicine, feel drowsy and bury myself in hours of deep sleep.
sigh i don't wanna go to uni.
i don't want ipho to start so soon.
i don't wanna take my driving test.
i don't wanna meet up and hang out with people anymore.
i just wanna stay home and sleep :(

okay this is just wrong. i need to get my act together, recover quickly, and get hyped up for ipho!
first, i need to meet up with many many like unice and sara!
then, i need to get some birthday stuff.
sing ktv with church friends.
meet up for dinner with the girls.
go for more driving lessons.
pack my stuff and search for all my ipho scripts.
stop sleeping.
read my uni matriculation package!!

I NEED TO GET WELL AND I WANT MOSES OUT OF CAMP NOW :(

CONGRATS JAS & DOREEN FOR PASSING YOUR DRIVING! OMG I'M SO JEALOUS

ALL THE BEST TO YOU WEIREN, FOR THAT TEN DAY TRAINING IN BRUNEI! JIAYOU! :)