this is a terribly sleepy morning, but anyway thank goodness it's FRIDAY!
last night was moses' graduation dinner, had supper after at grapevine, the steak was heavenly you know!
yesterday was unice's birthday, but even after airmailing her a birthday card, sending her a birthday sms, i get NO REPLY! grr.
barbecue at wallace's place tonight!
hopefully i won't get home too late so i can post pictures from last night and tonight!

check this out my fellow mg friends! HAHA.

ai an ee zed says:
belinda!
jumpin to the sound the demons can't stand it says:
hello inez!
ai an ee zed says:
i went to little india today and i saw an indian man selling flower garlands
jumpin to the sound the demons can't stand it says:
haha okayy then?
ai an ee zed says:
and HE WAS WEARING THE MG PE SHIRT!!!

hahaha can you imagine?! i'm currently waiting for inez to send me a picture of it! apparently her comp doesn't wanna load it! haha i'll post it when she sends it to me.

christine: err nope, it was actually kwite fast and easy to do! haha i simply ripped it off. credits to lucy for neatening up things for me with a sprinkle of his magicdust hurhur :)



Lord help me not to give up, help me to rejoice in ALL circumstances! surrendering my ALL to You!

Your Five Factor Personality Profile

Extroversion: You have high extroversion. You are outgoing and engaging, with both strangers and friends. You truly enjoy being with people and bring energy into any situation. Enthusiastic and fun, you're the first to say "let's go!" Conscientiousness: You have medium conscientiousness. You're generally good at balancing work and play. When you need to buckle down, you can usually get tasks done. But you've been known to goof off when you know you can get away with it. Agreeableness: You have low agreeableness. Your self interest comes first, and others come later, if at all. In general, you feel that people are not to be trusted. And you're skeptical that anyone else really feels differently. Neuroticism: You have low neuroticism. You are very emotionally stable and mentally together. Only the greatest setbacks upset you, and you bounce back quickly. Overall, you are typically calm and relaxed - making others feel secure. Openness to experience: Your openness to new experiences is medium. You are generally broad minded when it come to new things. But if something crosses a moral line, there's no way you'll approve of it. You are suspicious of anything too wacky, though you do still consider creativity a virtue.

got this from shumin :)
err but am i really that unagreeable?!

even with great and extremely violent objection, i'm still gonna post this cos it's so ultra amusing i almost collapsed laughing. while helping ethel choose her birks,

[me] jumpin to the sound the demons can't stand it says:
k have fun choosing!
jumpin to the sound the demons can't stand it says:
if turn out not nice don't blame me hahahaha
[ethel] goldrush. says:
chosed already la
goldrush. says:
hahahha
jumpin to the sound the demons can't stand it says:
chosed
goldrush. says:
okok i better go do my hw too
jumpin to the sound the demons can't stand it says:
fantastic english la ethel
jumpin to the sound the demons can't stand it says:
hahahaha
goldrush. says:
oooops
goldrush. says:
choosed i mean
goldrush. says:
heehee
goldrush. says:
anyway talk to u another time belly
goldrush. says:
and thankews for ur help!
jumpin to the sound the demons can't stand it says:
CHOOSED?!
jumpin to the sound the demons can't stand it says:
HAHAHAHAHAHA
jumpin to the sound the demons can't stand it says:
ETHEL!
goldrush. says:
then what is it?
jumpin to the sound the demons can't stand it says:
CHOSE!
jumpin to the sound the demons can't stand it says:
OR I'VE CHOSEN!
goldrush. says:
ohhh
goldrush. says:
oh right?
jumpin to the sound the demons can't stand it says:
haha i'm gonna tell crys to give you english tuition!
goldrush. says:
hahahha
goldrush. says:
pai say!
goldrush. says:
oh on. now i think ur impression of me is stupid
jumpin to the sound the demons can't stand it says:
hahahahahahahahaha that was soo funny, i'm gonna post it on my blog
goldrush. says:
NO BELLY DUNNNN!
goldrush. says:
hhahha
goldrush. says:
AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH
goldrush. says:
my reputation!
goldrush. says:
hahhaha

yep anyway, so while helping ethel choose her birks, i saw a gorgeous pair and i'm itching to get it! someone please slap me and remind me i've got two pairs already!

pretty huh? i showed it to my mum she thinks it's nice too! but it was a nono from her, 'please remember we have two pairs sitting in the cupboard!'

was supposed to go swimming with my colleagues today, but the sky looked very threatening. then when i got back, the sky was all bright and it din even rain! queer, but it struck me there and then, isn't that just how amazing God can be :) no matter how grey the clouds above you may seem, have faith that the rain would indeed go away! even if it DOES pour cats and dogs, be assured that it's there to water the plants ya! and the sunshine would be here for you again in a jiffy :) God You are good :)

ps. does anyone find the font too small?

lucy: please bear in mind, it's BEL 1 vs LUCY 0!

sara: please go expand your eyes! maybe then they'll stop giving you so much trouble! hee.

search me, o God, and know my heart;

test me and know my anxious thoughts.

see if there is any offensive way in me,

and lead me in the way everlasting.

today was such a blissful day :)

• led prayer and praise for MY GOD :)
• nice lunch at ps foodcourt and chillin' after at starbucks for the entire afternoon with my FAVOURITE CHURCH BOYS :)
• a nice afternoon nap in my LOVELY BED :)
• dinner at soup restaurant with MY BELOVED FAMILY and MY BOYFRIEND :)

*muah to all of you!

sara: yes i remember!

mich: i hated fann wong! and i thought sharon au was ugly! HAHAHA. but ya don't know why i remember shang used to say i look like sharon au too haha..

i'm loving jay chou's songs more and more, thanks to lennard quek for sending me that overload of jay chou :)
anyway, went for moses' bible college graduation dinner last night at rosette, food was pretty good :) the portions were huge! his bible college students seem to setting some new trend for the generation haha. there was a couple where the girl was two years older, and another where the girl was six years older! cool huh..
i'm currently teaching this eleven year old boy, it's kinda odd la. like he seems very shy with me and all.. as in normally they wouldn't pair me up with a big boy, but like cos i'm teaching his sis too, so i guess that's why hur.
oh and we visited roomful of blues last night, cos moses' bible college friend's the house guitarist there.. when we walked into the pub i heard 'Jesus i believe in You, Jesus i belong to You..', ya apparently he sings there cos they allow him to fit in one or two gospel songs now and then.
i missed the company dinner tonight! haha.. had worship pract, kwite fun la huh :) i remember the first i played for youth sunday, we practiced like from two weeks beforehand, and we had some nice pracices too in the youth room. oh well, some things of the past just taste pretty sweet :) but no matter how hard you try it'll never be the same again, cos relations do change, and interests do shift.. let's say if you were to try having some primary school best friends outing, as much as it might be fun catching up, but it'll never be the same as the good ol' fun we used to have or something. okay bad example to site, but ya just trying to illustrate a point here heh.
was looking thru some old school photos, saw this funny picture of steph chan, kelly and i like busy putting bunny ears behind each other's heads in the raffles marina pool :) then i got reminded of like anqi's annual birthday parties! i remember how we used to have mini sleepovers too, the regulars were like esther zhong, anqi, faith and i! and i tried to convince all of them to watch 'i know what you did last summer' [credit to inez for reminding me about the title, i guess i really AM getting old] and we'd scream our guts out like there's no tomorrow [or neighbours].. the next day would be a sleep-in/pizza day, then hop down to cine to watch movie. okay i sound like some havoc primary school kid, but it was all so fun! cos you know primary school kids don't get to do these things often, so when we do get to do it i'd be like extremely extremely excited and never wanna go home! now it's like, okay just another plain old hangout day at orchard. oh well, now to think of it, it's amazing how quickly friendships do change, especially in primary school, my clique of friends were like seasonal man.. and i remember shumin and i used to write letters to each other! about crushes and stuff. and i told her about this cute barker boy i always met on the bus.. [oh my goodness can you imagine? primary six bel! hurhur] i wonder if shumin actually recalls all this hahaha. HOW EMBARRASSING HUH.. and in primary two! we used to have this sprinting craze! like everyone was nuts about competing who's the fastest sprinter, and like duh inez the long-legged yang always won us hands down! and like we'd even skip recess, run to the canteen and grab a stick of what we called 'barbecue' [HAHAHA] then run back to the linkway for the GREAT SPRINTING RACE! hee :)
i can picture the whole mgs building in my mind now, from primary to secondary school, and what i used to do in each of those ulu corners surrounded by junglejunglejunglemaplewoodsjunglejunglemorejunglemaplewoods yep :) that's all we could see from our classrooms by the way, jungle and maplewoods haha.
okay i've got soo much more to talk about! but i shall stop here for now.. i love mgs!
1.1
2.5
3.5
4.5
5.5
6.5
1a1
2e
3a4
4a4
:):):):):)

farrah and i were emailing each other thru the office system, and we started talking about good ol' ac! then i realized how much i really miss ac! here's what i replied to her..Oh my goodness you’re really making me reminisce about the good ol’ days in ac! I really miss ac a lot : (

I know like I used to see you eating the waffle/curry puff during math lectures! Haha see I still remember!

Do you know that there was some noodle from the malay stall called mee pedawee or something like that?

It was like one buck for a bowl and extremely spicy and oily, my class boys introduced it to me and I loved it : )

Yep I remember my waffle craze was in j one. Like I ate it almost every recess, cos I wasn’t really used to eating two full meals in school..

Then come j two, I’d be eating like yong tau foo for recess, then chicken rice for lunch kinda thing haha.

I REALLY MISS JC : (

My class was such a superb class! Like Darren always wanted to come crash our class outings haha : )

Scold him, he’s a traitor! Then wallace’d get pissed with him cos he doesn’t go for his own class outing haha..

And I miss all the free periods, where we’d do nothing and just sit in the void deck talking cock.

That was in j one la.. in j two, free periods were like crap precious to me!

Rush to the library and study in the later part of j two. Was getting kwite terrified already, the a’s were nearing soo quickly!

Sigh : ( everything just flashed past like this!

Okay sorry for all that rambling, who ask you to get me started on ac life! Haha.

THANK YOU JASMINE GOH JIANMIN FOR PRETTY SATAY! [that's the name of the sunflower hee] I LOVE YOU :):):):):)

THANKS RYAN FOR HOSTING MY PHOTOS :)

grr! this is soo annoying, can't upload photos up on blogger properly. anyway hip hip hurray! i finished ALL my uni applications :) just wasted thirtyfive bucks on uni applications! bleah.
today on my way home, i was thinking about life and death.. and i was just about to start crying when i thought of people dying, especially close ones, and i was even about to blame God for all this suffering that has to happen to us, why God? if You claim You love us?
and the song on my ipod came on
cos i love You more than life
if i claim i love God more than life itself, why then am i still so bothered by life and death which only occurs on this earth?? then i started thinking about the heavenward goal which we are ALL living for! and yes, everything else really diminished in comparison.
who am i to blame God for this suffering on this earth? when i myself brought all this upon this earth? sin began with man, so man will bear the price.. guess what? our redeemer paid this price for us! Jesus Himself paid the highest price for these sins, He is the one who bore the MOST suffering any man could bear.
sorry for the very disjointed thoughts, the effects would've been much better if i had written all this down when the thoughts came pouring on the bus..
another point that i was thinking about. i can loudly and clearly say that i would die for my parents, YES I WOULD.. i love my parents so much! can i give my parents up for God? all the more i should say YES! but i found it so difficult. you know it's easier for me to say i would die for God than to say i would give my parents up for God?
but Lord, i just wanna surrender all of life's possessions into Your hands now..
sorry, if this seems really random to you. but,
you have no idea how i'm feeling now, i'm still learning how to trust

sorry for the late update, but i've really got nothing much to talk about lately. okay let's talk about driving! heh my third lesson was good :) i'm improving kwite alot, my instructor was kwite impressed.. cos like before that i was warning him of my terrible driving skills, and after that he was like 'not bad what!' HEE. the instructor last night was terribly funny ah beng! he's only twentythree and spoke terrible english, so i called him an ah beng.. then he kept going like 'wha you make me beri sad lehh' hahaha.









Lord tell me i'm in a bad dream...

I'm here to meet with you
come and meet with me
I'm here to find you
reveal yourself to me
As I wait, you make me strong
As I long, draw me to your arms
As I stand and sing your praise
You come, you come and you fill this place
Won't you come, Won't you come and fill this place

urghh i feel like my cheeks are burning at eighty degrees! [just twenty degrees away before my cheek cell fluid starts boiling] i'm extremely flushed and i've no idea whyy, i look like i've got a few layers of blush on. please don't tell me alcohol takes effect like twentyfour hours later..

• din get to apply for my pdl again! cos i woke up late, and my mum took kwite long to prepare my lunch. so i figure i'd have to apply for half day leave again on monday/tuesday
• piano teaching :) i have two new crushes - darryl and elden :) but still love matthew all the same hee. elden's soo cute.. he came and peeked at me teach this indian girl, then when i waved he quickly ducked away heheh.
• i'm really enjoying this piano-teaching job very much :) i just hope i don't love it so much to make it my profession haha..
• bev din come today :(
• dinner with the parents at the lagoon. goodness, my mum queued like half an hour for the famous lagoon beef kway teow. please go try it, it's awesomely superb! the best beef kway teow i've ever tasted YES..
• i'm bringing the thai girls staying at my place to church tomorrow! it's their last sunday here with us and they actually took the initiative to ask me to bring them to church tomorrow! cos like last week i asked them but they were too tired and they told me they're buddhist so they din wanna go. but i'm really glad now :)
• ryan just asked me to go swimming tomorrow! very extremely tempting, but i know i desperately need some solid hours of rest.

I LOVE YOU TOO SARALOWSHULI!

i love you doreen!

i love you jas!

YOU'RE MY BESTEST FRIENDS IN THE WHOLE WIDE WORLD! :):)

crys: you know i miss you already even though it's just one weekend without you :(

• timbre! :)
  heehee check out jas!
  justyn the french fry monster!, wallace, bel :)
  bel, jas, the indian man darren :)
  my FAVOURITE girls :)
  the extremely pro'crazy drummerrrr!
  step #1 .. flaming waterfall ..
  step #2 ..
  step # 3 ..
  bottoms up!
  the after-effects [see the red-faced jas? hee]
  and the red-faced doreen?
  see? i was the only sane one left :) hahaha.
  my hubby/wifey :)
  hurhur denise's 'supposed-to-be-disgusted' expression after a sip of graveyard!
  i think the colour difference is getting clearer haha.
  the crazy angmoh man on his self-transformed dancefloor!
  sarah chan singing angels :)
  looks of disgust. graveyard sucks la..

-night of MADNESS!

-lychee martini

-two pints of heineken

-sex on the beach

-lychee sunset

-flaming waterfall

-graveyard

-don't worry i'm not an alcoholic, and i'm still perfectly sane! haha. all that couldn't compare to the long island tea i had two weeks ago hahaha.. thanks denise for sending me home :):)

-thanks wallace for footing the 172dollar bill :)

-thanks jas for buying me the pretty bible :)

-lesson learnt: don't ever touch graveyard again!

anon: err don't even ask! sigh driving's driving me insane. i've never had SO much trouble learning ANYTHING else before :(

You don't have to drive a fancy car
Don't have to quote me Shakespeare just to woo me
Yeah I see your nervous laughter when you're trying to crack some joke
Well, you don't fool me
I'd like to see your eyes through those goggles that you're wearing
Don't try to hide away
Just be yourself, Mr. Beasley
I don't need your show of attitude
Coz' it's your soul that makes me fall in love with you
You don't know this but I see you in the church when you are praying,
You just move me
And my friend Sue she tells me you've been teaching kids for free
Mr. Philanthropy
I'd like to see your eyes through those goggles that you're wearing
Don't try to hide away
Just be yourself, Mr. Beasley
I don't need your show of attitude
Coz' it's your soul that makes me fall in love with you
Be yourself, Mr. Beasley
I don't need your show of attitude
Coz' it's your soul that makes me fall in love with you
I'd like to see your eyes through those goggles that you're wearing
Don't try to hide away

check this out.

wondering how they met and what makes it last says:
lucy! can you send movies over msn? hahaha
llw says:
can
llw says:
but it will take rougly a month
wondering how they met and what makes it last says:
hahahaha serious?

Man is now a horror to God and to himself and a creature ill-adapted to the universe not because God made him so but because he has made himself so by the abuse of his free will.
-cs lewis

today was another horrible day at work! i got warned for many many things.

1. using msn
2. reading blogs
3. wearing jeans
4. coming back from lunch at two
5. reading storybook

okay but i'm not really bothered, cos the only thing's at stake's my job, which everyone knows i'm kwite ready to give up anytime haha.. ya i'm really looking forward to the end of april! when i can start concentrating on my driving, doing freelance teaching, maybe get a temp retail job for the thrill of it, going for a nice holiday with friends, doing some volunteer work maybe :)

lunch with sara :) okay if moses is my boyfriend, sara must be my husband, cos i see her 15642789 times more than moses hahaha. we had the soup thing, okay it wasn't fantastic heh, but it was filling and satisfying cos of the company :) then i tapao'd pearly soya milk, and missed my train thanks to it.. that's why i was back late. anyway CHEER UP MY BESTESTESTESTEST PARDIEPARDX :)

i saw colin wee today!!! haha i saw an international model wearing shirt and pants, and carrying a backpack hurhur.. he is so hot.

and i kwite like the new zara tshirts with like golden flowery patterns on them.. but i'm not about to spend sixtybucks on zara tshirts hurhur. i think i really should go be an accountant!

ohya updates on my first driving lesson! my instructor said i was ji1 shou3 ya1 jiao3, which means poultry limbs altogether = CLUMSY. okay thankew very much.. and i din dare travel above twenty km/h, it was how scary la haha. hopefully my next lesson on thursday would be better :(

velda: if you've read the above, you'll realise i can't go on msn anymore :( but it's okay, tag more often okay! i can still sneak a few peaks with blogs heh.

shangwei: haha oh man ns! heh perhaps we should have one of those stayovers like during your ten day break after pop!

mich: i'd still be working in late april :( when are you quitting??

sigh i'm suffering the monday blues again :( hey all, thanks for the concern and encouragement! i don't think my problems are anything huge at all, and i know that it's nothing compared to what many are going thru out there, but i just can't help but feel miserable at times. crossroads that really just tear you apart..
oh well, on a happier note, the weekend was lots of fun! spent with tonnes of good friends :)
saturday - piano teaching again :) i got my pay for february, it was like sixtyfive bucks for an hour and fifteen minutes worth of work HEH :) had an extremely long break, cos one of students changed timings, so went to meet lucy and guan for lunch. while waiting for guan, lucy had to go shop for some of my necessities with me and we met a tranny in body shop! haha that stupid boy was so amused..
dinner at newton after crosslink! sara came along. and i'm fully convinced that every outing with her has been a "eat lots of oily food and put on weight" session. we had chicken wings, fried hokkien mee, char kway teow, ice kacang, stingray, sugar cane! haha.. then went to play arcade again! haha. we completed ALL the stages of bishi bashi haha..
sunday - nus open house after church. the chem talk sucked so bad, the pharmacy talk was informative. smu accountancy talk was pretty good, not exactly super informative, but it made the school look attractive to many.. now even though the accountancy talk was interesting and all, what's more important? selling the school?/helping the students find out more about the course?
anyway dinner after that with yanqing! haha it was nice catching up with a jc classmate. and we can talk non-stop about the good old jc days, the slogging for the a's, how thankful we both were for our results and blahblahblah.. ate at carl's junior, my first time! haha it was GOOD and HUGE! but we split a burger, and we were both full! ya so you can imagine. went to mosaic, blues for the night :) so glad it wasn't something like hiphop again! oh well, my first driving lesson tonight! haha how exciting.. hope i don't crash! hur :)
ryan, elroi: thankew :)
crys: please do come along to melbourne if you can!
sara: we're gonna have salad with peas next time!
mich: haha it's not confirmed, but probably june?
deb: yep i haven't seen you for very long either! congrats on your 4A's :)

sigh life's a mess :( :( :(

i give You my heart
i give You my soul*

this is hilariouss man!

i've loved, i've laughed, and cried says:
how long is yuor hair now?
i've loved, i've laughed, and cried says:
is it still short?
u-nice says:
shoulder length
u-nice says:
you marinate it over nite
u-nice says:
sorry wrong box
i've loved, i've laughed, and cried says:
HAHAHAHAHA

ran to kembangan mrt and back today, cos i was feeling absolutely flabby and disgustingly unhealthy! [note: i said FLABBY, not FAT so please don't scold me] somehow everytime i go running i always see this guy wearing some red singlet from secondary school/jc, whichever. kwite glad cos i think my fitness is crawling back bit by bit, i wasn't panting like a mad dog anymore today hahaha.. but i had alot for dinner, had chocolate, a banana, seaweed and other junk food. haha i like going running, cos after that i feel like i can afford to eat more heh..
had lunch with darren at newton hawker today.. it was my first time having lunch there, despite working at newton for the past month plus. goodness i think i almost suffered a heatstroke HURHUR.. i think darren's getting funnier these days! haha. and he told me that sugarcane has rat's pee in it, that made me feel soo sick after drinking the sugarcane..
work was HORRIBLE today! i had soo much work to do. and it's not nice work at all.. what's more, i got maligned for something which i'm pretty sure i DID NOT commit. urgh i hate that feeling, of not even being able to stand up for myself.. i was seriously sooo pissed off i felt like resigning there and then.
lucy's message came in at an apt time, reminding me of our melbourne trip! haha nothing's confirmed, but i'm really hoping to take a nice vacation before uni begins! and my parents are going to hokkaido/tokyo without me in april :( :(
shumin: blame sara the low for cheating the innocent me! haha..
ryan: you're not a boy, you're a cub! hahaha.

i can just sense it, this IS the start of an absolutely terrible day :(
1. i so dreaded waking up this morning and wanted to take a day off work but my mum wouldn't let me :(
2. i found out i left my phone behind after i got into the car and had to run all the way back up to my room to get it!
3. just after i opened the door to get out of the car, i dropped my phone on the horrible rocky floor :'( *double ouch
4. i dropped my wallet while walking to my office
5. after i went to the toilet in the morning, the first time i washed my hands the tap was still working, RIGHT after i soaped my hands, the tap din work anymore! grr, so i had to get someone to open the door for me to go to the other toilet and get my soapy hands washed, AAH!!
6. whilst checking out my driving slots today, i found out that the slots moses booked for me were all void! at least i hope so, cos i booked all my brand new slots starting from april, pray that there's no double booking, which there shouldn't be cos the cash in my account was still intact when i entered grr.
7. i'm doing crap work now, as always.
TODAY IS A BLACK MONDAY!!! :(
on a brighter note, i'm gonna start looking forward to the first of the odd months.. heh like going for service, cos we get to end early teehee :) but youth is good too cos i get fed alot! cg wonton mee lunch yesterday was good :) whilst crys told us her disgusting prata/farting story, it made the meal ALOT tastier i'm sure.
went to the career fair after with doreen, christina, her other half, james, jas and met khengsiang and zhisheng there.. so jas and i were each others' boyfriends for the day hahaha. i wouldn't say it was completely useless, but it wasn't exactly particularly useful either so ya.. hopefully nus open house this weekend would provide more insight.
went shopping for awhile, just khengsiang, zhisheng, jas and i! haha..
[at hush puppies']
khengsiang: belindaRRR [the way he always calls my name], the yellow polo tee nice right?
me: err nooo, i think the purple one's nicer
him: ohh okay la not bad also
after he comes out of the changing room,
him: eh belindaRRR, i feel like barney
hahaha khengsiang NEVER fails to crack me up la.
marche after that! :) jas and i shared a banana/caramel crepe with strawberry and chocolate icecream.. *yumm
moses came over for dinner at night and we took a bus to parkway to get my silverish/whitish/glitterish nail polish heh :) then went supermarket shopping! haha at giant. got honey and sweets for him.. conference at night with the church boys, that's what made me not wake up this morning :(
please pray that the rest of the day will go better!!

my favourite show, moulin rouge's is on now :):):)

So she said what's the problem baby
What's the problem I don't know
Well maybe I'm in love (love)
Think about it every time I think about it
Can't stop thinking 'bout it
How much longer will it take to cure this
Just to cure it cause I can't ignore it if it's love (love)
Makes me wanna turn around and face me but I don't know nothing 'bout love,

oh Come on, come on T
urn a little faster
Come on, come on
The world will follow after
Come on, come on
Because everybody's after love

taught four students today :) i think i'm getting better, like i know how to run the lesson now without stopping and wondering 'what should i do next?' for the first time, a student made me tear during a lesson.
me: jezlinda, your uncle brings you here every week, then what about your dad?
the six-year-old her: my dad die already.
-pause-
her: ya i think he's dead [absolutely innocently], that's why my uncle bring me. my mummy's working.
i kept my head down, stapling her worksheets as tears welled up in my eyes..
crosslink after that, i only understood like half the sermon. i don't know if it's cos i missed the first or it's just me or what.. not that the content was too deep or whatever, i just din really get the point of the whole thing?! don't know man.
lucy made his first step to becoming a gentleman: he stood up to block the aircon from me when i said i was cold! haha :)
dinner with ryan and favian! haha at meridien foodcourt, how romantic.. and i got to eat my FAVOURITE yami yoghurt :) met junjie at meridien, he's gone crazy. he just snatched my bottle and drank from it like that..
arcade after that! haha played daytona with the guys, i wasn't THAT far behind alright! hee. okay i think i absolutely need sleep, after sleeping at three am last night.. i'm not the young me who could take six hours of sleep a day anymore!
signs of the ageing bel: a six-year-old nicholas called me auntie today.
some girl whom i used to take school bus with recognized me [and i din recognize her] and said 'ya i know you're very old one!'
okay the senior citizen me shall go to bed now :)

Come, now is the time to worship
Come, now is the time to give your heart
Come, just as you are to worship
Come, just as you are before your God
Come
One day every tongue will confess You are God
One day every knee will bow
Still the greatest treasure remains for those
Who gladly choose You now

guess what? i passed my basic theory test in NINE MINUTES! haha i'm so so proud of myself man! :) first to step out of the classroom! haha. ya i got scared after i failed two evaluations yesterday.. just like how i got scared after prelims and mugged my buttock away for the a's! haha okay THANKEW GOD! :) one day EVERY TONGUE WILL confess You are God! :)

results today! feelings;

1. disappointed [extremely] when my name wasn't called up to be on stage
2. watching ALL of my girlfriends besides crys and inez slowly drift up...
3. nervous [super] whilst queuing up for my results, crying already...
4. emotionless when i got my results. it was the o level thing again, not as good as what i wanted, but good enough per se.
5. excited as i started thanking God and thinking about the great improvement i've made and the hard work which paid off! :)
6. sudden surge of emotions when i gave mrs wendy lim a hug and thanked her, and she started crying on my shoulders and wouldn't let go. i remember she was saying 'i feel so guilty about your class' and i replied 'its okay madam'.. and both of us were just standing there crying and crying.
7. pretty happy when i started calling my tuition teachers and parents and blah and they were all congratulating me. :)

alright overall, i'd say i'm satisfied! :) even though i really wished for more, but look at it this way, i got dde for my prelims, what more could i ask for? :)

and i'm reallythankful for the thanksgiving service we had before the collection of results. it gave me more insight to God's plans and my attitude towards things like academic results, which have been so extremely important to me.. and i clearly remember and treasure lifeng's words "that we'll be able to let our security lie in God and not that piece of paper"! i really don't know what to say now. God has been so faithful and assuring.. even though i've been so doubting and foolish. i've always been.. worrying about this, worrying about that. [i'm sure weiren can testify to this!]

i'm 'counselling' majun right now, or you could call it nagging.. but i really hope to help him realize that the point of life is working towards a goal. a goal that must be important to you such that you feel driven to work towards it.. where does the motivation come from? where does the strength required to work towards it come from? how could anyone make a leap of more than three grades for every subject within two months?

"no not by strength, nor by might, but by the Spirit of God!"

belinda
smu accountancy
'the Lord is my shepherd; i shall not want.' psalm 23


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