exams start like.. TOMORROW. WTH! :(
i've done kwite abit of work for fa already, yet i still feel unprepared. and i keep worrying about this that.. what am i gonna do about the essay question? what if i can't balance the balance sheet? what if my cash flow statement doesn't tally? what if i get a decimal place for my net income?! what if my mcq answer turns out to be 'none of the above'? urghh.
skyping is real cool, and it's become even more useful over the past few days! heh. ohgawsh, can't believe december's just round the corner! used to be the happiest month of the year for me.. i'm not too sure about this year, having to spend the important occasions without my closest people, past / present.. this -161206- needs to be struck out of the calendar this year
i should stop immersing myself in unimportant, and perhaps non-existent sorrow and get back to my revision.
i just spent my entire night skyping with alex and aeron discussing fa! hahaha oh gawsh, how nerdy can we get?!
ohya i heard about some despicable smu peeps. can you believe it. fancy compiling past-year papers and selling them for 12$ a booklet! yikes. are people in nus and ntu like that too? i'm disgusted.
enough is enough. urgh.
yesterday i spent a good 12hours in the smu library.. but it wasn't all mugging and no play. weijie and i just couldn't concentrate!! so we walked around the library, and i went to disturb sara's consultation with chinta hahaha. and we were snapping christmas lightings photos over dinner. haha but too much library time's really bad for the head. i came back with a throbbing headache.. this has happened for at least the past 2nights already.
while we were leaving the library at 11+pm last night, alex said he saw people walking into the library with pillows and all, ready to camp there. so the saying goes.. are we really lacking some hall life in smu?
the whole floor outside pick&bite was full of cigarettes. i think the stress is really getting to the smu kids. i wish i could do something to change smu to be more like ac. where the library was actually quiet, and conducive for studying.. where we had a hub, like an entire family studying together. where we could go play captain's ball in the midst of mugging. where we had free dinner, and people were actually more amicable. where there was less ah beng / ah lian language [imagine.. if i were in ntu, i think i would die].. where the cubicles were so lovely, i actually considered koping one to bring home heheh.
thank goodness for me, i've found some really good and helpful friends in smu. and life's not so bad after all cos of them :)) my <3>
my eyesight is getting so incredibly bad, i feel like i need to wear my specs permanently now, even though alex always laughs at my specs.. urghh. thanks to all the staring-into laptops!!
sorry guys, photos from starry night aren't up yet.. i feel superr lazy. i was really dying for a run today, but it had to pour..
spent the day in cold marine parade library. nostalgic moments of mugging for a levels days.. spent the entire morning doing a few stupid journal entries, income statement and a balance sheet i couldn't balance!! urgh. well at least i got it balanced in the end.. after like 100000hours!!
thanks guys for all the encouragement :) right now, i'm just kinda stoned. i've been studying.. but i just feel like a very ineffective learner these days. maybe i'm just discouraged by the fact that no matter how hard i study, i might not even do well at the end of the day..
ohwell, thanks to my 'mini fan club' as weijie calls it, for coming down to support me during starry night :) hee really appreciate all the flowers, cheers and photos :)
i discovered something badd. i have a tendency to study till about 3am - the time when i know i could go on forever, yet recognizing the need to sleep even though i don't feel tired. and this is the time when i find it so hard to fall into a deep sleep. that's what happened to me last night..
ohwell america's next top model rocks. danielle's hot. joanie's soo pretty. they've transformed so much :) prettypretty.
life, you haven't been treating me too well..
i screwed up bizlaw so bad, i was almost in tears. the first bad result of my uni life, and it's beginning to tear me apart already.. i jolly well know i could've done better. urghh, and that's the feeling that sucks most. cos i frickin couldn't finish 50% of the paper due to poor time management. i'm a frickin retard.
wth. i'm gonna study so hard for the end-years. if only human beings never had to feel sleepy.. and there was a better way to save on sleeping time. or perhaps, i should've spent my 8months of freedom hibernating, and stocked up all my energy, such that i wouldn't need to sleep for the entire sem. then during the holidays, i'll go into another hibernation.. tell me, wth am i thinking?!
had the usual tuesday mugging session with aeron and alex in the penthouse gsr in soa. followed by coming home, indulging in lots of tidbits and chocolate, watching oc. if only there weren't so much to worry about in life..
i prayed: God, help me to give all glory to You no matter what the results are.
but now i'm really struggling to do so..
screw it. zzz nites.
i'm getting highly irritated with myself now. it's a mere 2 weeks away from final-years and i'm still bumming around the house as if it really is the last week of school already. urghh!! somebody please slap me and ask me to wake up my idea..
by now you've learned that you don't have to be alone to feel lonely. 2000 years ago 250 million people populated the earth. now there are more than 5 billion. if loneliness could be cured by the presence of people, then surely there would be less loneliness today. but loneliness lingers.
the question: what will happen to a face in the crowd when it gets too crowded?
arghh! i need to start work.. it's not funny anymore.
comms presentation!! i'm not freaking out just YET. but i think i will tomorrow morning.
friday night was spent with moses, dinner at california pizza kitchen. i'm in love with the barbecue chicken pizza!! plus the spinach dip thing. some kind of indulgence. and he passed me his new itrip, cos he got his old one working.. yay :))
nvm about the time i got irritated cos i got stuck in a dead-end in the lido carpark and i couldn't get out cos there was way too little space for me to make a 3-point turn. i got pissed off and got out of the car and made him do it for me.
last night, spent kwite sometime on the piano practising something for starry night. i don't wanna embarrass myself :\ today, during cantata practice in church, i got convinced you really do need short nails to play the piano. one of my nails got caught between 2 keys while i was playing some running notes. my finger was red, and my nail chipped :(
just got off the phone with jan, haha stupid lucky girl, just got back from bangkok.. on a FISHING TRIP haha.
omg it's week 13 already everyone.. brace yourselves for the final last lap!!
wanna see what we do with our oreos??
TWIST
LICK :P
DUNK!
now you ask me, what's up with smu kiddos yo?
Jesus, what a beautiful name
Son of God, Son of man
Lamb that was slain
joy and peace. strength and hope
grace that blows all fear away
Jesus, what a beautiful name
Jesus, what a beautiful name
truth revealed, my future sealed
healed my pain
love and freedom. life and warmth
grace that blows all fear away
Jesus, what a beautiful name
Jesus, what a beautiful name
rescued my soul, my stronghold
lifts me from shame
forgiveness, security, power and love
grace that blows all fear away
Jesus, what a beautiful name
at assisi :)i've finally resorted to relying on caffeine to stay awake at this hour -_- even after my ten-hour sleep on saturday night, followed by a two-hour nap this afternoon, and just a fifteen-minute power nap minutes ago, nothing seems to be curing my accumulated zzz deficit :\
had crystal jade dinner with the folks at parkway, and finally bought a new pair of pants for presentations :) also, brought the indon friends to east coast park for a night-stroll by the beach.
ltb execution this afternoon at assisi, spoke to a terribly cute eightytwo-year old lady who said to me 'yes, i studied in singapore. my school is called methodist girls school', which resulted in a 'me too!!' from myself. thereafter, she said this to me at least thrice, 'you come from methodist girls school too? very good, very good!', each time completely forgetting she'd said it to me previously already hee.
some of the kids were adorable, and they looked full of energy despite being terminally-ill. their expressions would never have given you a clue.. besides the bald lil heads which gave them away. why the suffering, we ask again? cos of Your justice, o God.. Your punishment for mankind?
i wish i could plonk myself back into bed now.. but no, i need to start preparing for comms presentation!! :\ meeting my uncle tomorrow morning to collect extra info.
i must say i've kinda gained new insight into certain things after an unexpected hour-long phone-chat with shaun last night.. and it's shocking how much a taste of smu living could turn its students' lives upside down..
all i have in mind now is: ZZZ ...
pictures from assisi will be up soon, though i don't really have many :)
it's been a week since i last updated.
the week's been pretty hectic.. an entire week of fa, picture that.
played daytona with some of the church guys today, good consecutive five / six rounds.. and i actually won one of them :)) reminded me of the time jon drove me home at 150 km/h, and i was clinging to the seatbelt for dear life's sake.
full day of jazz yesterday. we learnt how to do recording! twas fun :) the studio was nice and cozy, for me to fall asleep in the couch ...
caught flushed away with some of the bizlaw friends on friday night after fa quiz :) good relaxing :) the animations were really cute, though i had some trouble deciphering what sort of animals the characters were :\ i mistook a toad for a lizard, and a rodent for a doggie, hee. sem two's timetables were out on thursday night. to my horror, i've got a five-day week next sem, for five mods! i don't suppose block b life would be any better afterall -_- sara that lucky girl, said to me 'i had my first presentation today!' and it's already week eleven.. well, i had my third graded presentation on friday. i've got another two coming up in the next two weeks, so that's five presentations by the end of the semester..
i foresee two very tiring weeks ahead :(
i was soo tired, i went to bed at ten last night. hee.
i think it's hightime i started archiving my photos on an online album, so i shall upload all my photos at the end of each month.. i can't expect my 512 mb memory card to contain more can i? it's a good one month plus to my birthday, but i have kwite an extravagant wishlist already HEE :P
read a really good chapter in one of max lucado's books last night, about fear..
listen to this you guys:
don't measure the size of the mountain; talk to the One who can move it. instead of carrying the world on your shoulders, talk to the One who holds the universe on His. hope is a look away.
why did he say 'hope is a look away'?
cos he wants to remind us, that instead of focussing on the problem, we ought to focus on the solution. and that solution? would be God Himself. so why not just look at God's face, look unto the Cross for help, instead of staring straight at your woes, not knowing how to conquer them?
strength for today and bright hope for tomorrow -
great is Thy faithfulness o Lord..
more photobooth moments! hee :)
i've got funnier ones of jan, but i chose not to put them up for fear i get killed!! haha
