it's been a long while since i've blogged proper. lately it's just this myriad of photos cos i'm getting lazy.. things always come in whiffs for me, i'll have this sudden blogging craze where i could blog incessantly all day. and now it's died down.. just to keep visitors alive, i post pictures. and of course i've also noticed how my blog has served very much as a photo-koping place for most of my girls, ya and bel's always here to help so :)
too much to update for the past week but here's a shout for everyone, you gotta hear it cos WORK'S OFFICIALLY OVER FOR ME! okay isn't that just W-O-N-D-E-R-F-U-L huh huh huh?
so friday i went for the pharmacy discretionary interview, cos apparently my grades don't meet their mark and i'm not getting my hopes high anymore.. i think i could settle for smu?
and i was just thinking, if all my closest closest friends could have their not-so-fairytalish dream come true, THEN - jas*nus medicine, doreen*uk physio, sara*smu accountancy, bel*nus pharmacy. so then i still have jas with me :) BUT if things were to go a little unright, THEN - jas*nus pharmacy, doreen*smu business, sara*nus business, bel*smu accountancy. then i'll still have doreen :) i'm kwite a lucky girl don't you think? hee
updates from saturday;
a nice japanese lunch with the beloved bevvie :) we made a once-a-month luxurious lunch pact, which would probably keep my saturdays rather sane till bev leaves for lse :(
weiren's sister's birthday part at the pines.. i felt rather under-dressed cos much was unexpected, BUT it was a lovely time of good food and uhm nice jay chou music haha. nice chatting session with his mum, and a rather awkward moment when she invited me to take a family portrait with them HAHA..
joke of the night: hanging five helium balloons outside your car door, and watching them fly away one by one as we drove thru orchard road [that's your boyfriend f0r you velda! HAHA]
supper at grapevine with the incomplete sd gang cos wallace the pess c-er's still stuck in confinement and doreen's tucked away fishing in some batam kelong haha.
me: EH do you all have cleaners in tekong?
jlow: huh what cleaners?
me: the ones which sweep the floor and make your bed la
darren: ya duh, you know when you feel hungry at night you just dial *900 and there'll even be room service!
me: *bursts out laughing like the usual me
darren: ... sigh some things don't change you know
...
yep so in the car, mo was telling us about his close encounters with creatures of the 'other world' while guarding the ammo dump. when jlow questioned 'WHAT? YOU WENT TO GUARD THE AMMO DUMP?!' mo replied 'ya i know it's haunted but fun what' classic definition of screw loose for you..
met kren at cdc today! while she was driving in, was hesitating if i should wave 'hi' cos that was the place where i almost crashed into the gate and i din want the same disaster to fall upon her. then i remembered 'chay she's driving auto!' was there for my e-trial final theory.. i better pass it on tuesday cos i'm not exactly gonna study. it's simpler than basic theory if you ask me. probably cos there's more technical stuff now which i know of already after my instructor praised me with this 'hey you've got pretty good driving skills!' HEEEEE :)
there's someone whom i totally miss: that's you ms slow :(
weiren: hey fred meet bel
fred: oh ya we've met before, at slow's party remember
weiren: oh but you haven't met her before that right?
fred: no i have! the year before at slow's party too!
sara your birthdays are greatly remembered :)
last but not least,


HAPPY BIRTHDAY NADIM KAPADIA! :)

debz: yesyes we'll meet up soon!

anonymous: haha nope i applied for nus pharmacy, accountancy was my second choice.
grace the smartpants: i'll probably meet you around somewhere between the pharmacy and dentistry blocks during lunch huh? HEH

Jesus was, first and foremost, a working man from a working man's family. we cannot afford to forget that!

one does no harm either to the divine nature of Christ or to the Scriptures by musing on a carpenter's way of life. what was the working man's environment like? did Jesus ever hit His thumb with a hammer or cut Himself with a knife blade? if He did, what did He say in His moment of pain? were Jesus' products - ox yokes, doors and windows, furniture - competitive in quality and price with those of other carpenters? did anyone ever complain that His work was substandard and try to return a product? did He ever haggle over prices for materials at an ancient version of a lumber yard? did He ever lose out in a bidding competition for a job? and how did He act when fellow carpenters got together and used salty language to complain about prices or government regulations?

let the mind run on these sorts of questions because they force us to upgrade our view of the incarnate Lord. they help us to see Himin a new light: not as a gentle somewhat passive, quiet person, but as a tough man, a survivor, one whose resume of practical experience must have included injuries, the heat of competition, the temptation to cut corners or to use cheap materials while charging for expensive ones. to use the language of the eighties, Jesus was no lightweight. He wouldn't have survived in the streets if He had been. in fact, the gospel writer notes that He thrived in that world - not the world of theologians and clergy, but the world of people of the street, of tough folks.

grace: how can you not know! hee probably the same thing as what you applied for! which other decent course is there in ntu huh? HEH
anonymous: let me repeat, which other decent course is there in ntu huh? haha accountancy, same for smu. don't ask me why i din apply for double degree, it's kwite a big regret now but NVM..
mich: you'll know exactly how i'm feeling now!
here's a convo i had with the folks over dinner.
me: mum did you eat cha soba?
mum: ya of course with lots of wasabi!
me: mum did you eat chawanmoshi?
mum: of course! we had it every breakfast!
me: AAH!!!
mum: k la we'll bring you along next time!
me: NEXT TIME grr.
mum: then what? tomorrow ah?
dad: aiyar i'll bring you there tonight la.
:(
oh btw when are you coming back mich! and i thought you went for your smu interview before you flew off? careful shumin's house robber doesn't rob you away! HEE

after i replied lucy's message,

lucy: phew you're still on earth!

lucy: you nv come online. nv blog. i thought the ghost outside your window came and find you

last night after i returned ryan's missed call,
ryan: belly i thought you died! i thought the ghost in your house ate you up!

heehee my friends are so funny huh? and no my house's NOT haunted just in case you're wondering heh.. just that there are frequent weird noises outside my house cos of the speakers they put at the bus stop outside my house which always make horrible coughing noises! it's some robitussin lozenges advertisement apparently. that explains why huh? heh..
SO just in case you're wondering what on earth have i been up to the past few days, here's what.

• preparing for sara's surprise birthday party!
• maundy thursday service
• supper at harbourfront hawker with doreen, james and khengsiang hee :)
• stayover at my place with doreen and jas my favourite girls who make me the happiest!
• day out with moses when he finally came out!
• dinner with moses' family and sending him to pasir ris
• staying home alone for two nights :(
• conference with ryan and lucy and getting scared by the phone ghost!
• ipho training at the extremely ulu-ated place ntu!
• dinner at sakae with inez, grace, christina, waimay and audrey!
• acceptance letter from smu on saturday whee :)
• acceptance letter from ntu today! heeh :)
• what happened nus??!!
• easter service at plmc! :):)
• sandwich making at jas' house hee
• THE SURPRISE PARTY!
• sharing the bed with sara the violent teeth-grinder
• bathing with sara the cheeko-pek HAHA [actually it was MY idea this time hee]
• having romantic breakfasts at the grass patch/at tcc every work morning at raffles place with my romantic other half of course :)
• talking and ranting non-stop
• praying and doing qt with my best friend :)
• getting kicked in bed by the violent one!
• hugging each other in bed and getting our heads knocked! hee [okay enough of the lesbianism]
• dinner at timbre cos wallace wanted to use up his food vouchers, hee with a very-incomplete sd gang plus sara of course.
• lunch at scotts with darren and doreen, cos the darren the cheater gotta book out for three days cos of his rashes!
• arcade at great world last night! haha :)
• watched firewall at great world gv the very ulu cinema which i think is gonna close down soon
• grapevine! haha to satisfy wallace's craving before he enlists on friday
• darren and wallace came over last night to play guitar haha :)

okay i think that was kwite a sufficiently long list of updates :) took a nice long walk home from kembangan today since i din feel like going running. going driving again later :) yay! and my parents bought like a million and one tonnes of good food from japan! sushi, sashimi, wasabi, crackers, wasabi peas, japanese strawberries, scallop, chocolates, sweet potato, japanese bread. my mum bought kwite alot of makeup too :) they sound like they had alot of fun! my mum was telling me about her disneyland experiences, sounded SO FUN! i really really wanna go! she said there were cherry blossoms like at every corner of hokkaido.. aaah i'm seriously SO JEALOUS. my dad told me about a 300$ crab they ate, and some 200$ melon they ate too haha.. they spent about one k plus on food! my mum bought back like scallops as gifts, each packet about 60-70$! they're nuts la!

something random.

yesterday at the arcade, i saw this mummy watching her son play house of the dead..

me: doreen, next time when i'm a mummy, i'll make sure i'm playing with my son and not watching him play. so now i'm gonna start training and be really good with boyish games so i can play with my son and beat him! then he'll think 'wow my mummy's way cool man!' heh

doreen: err i think you should just stick to having daughters

HAHAHA.

AND i got a snail mail from CHAN UNICE today!! :):) but the letter got wet in the mailbox, and i tore the pretty butterfly sticker on the envelope :( thanks unice, your handwriting's improved hee and it really really made my day :) she said something funny in her letter: so all of us - mark [chay], arriel, song zheng, jeff, me, jay lin, christian & his gf - decided to go craw-fishing [i don't know what that is]. so we packed everything and drove 1 hour kinda up the mountains. so before we left, the weather was perfect. cooling with sun. lalala... drive drive drive... reached the lake & guess what?? the lake was frozen! & there were pple ice-fishing.

hahaha it was such an 'err okay' thing after i read it but it's still sweet la hee :) okay i think i've been ranting too much and it's time to get behind the wheel! heheh i'm really happy cos i'm ending work in a week's time!! and i got permission for relief-teaching from moe already, just that it's not exactly something feasible, cos i suppose all the schools should be having their exams huh? haha..

velda: no i don't! haha i'm really kwite busy, at least till i quit my job hee. there are so many things i wanna do and i can't, like swim and tan! and go for more driving lessons! heh.
anonymous: uhm i run at the siglap park connector near my house, i'm not telling you which one haha. but ya if you stay in the east, there are kwite a few park connectors around. sometimes i run to east coast park and back :)
llw: hee please don't scare me, i'm home alone and i really don't wish to think there are stalkers outside my house now. anyway we'll catch a movie soon! it's been too much of an un-fulfilled plan all the time!
sara: i love you too :) even though the orange-peeling thing was done very unwillingly! hee. i got a cut cos i scratched myself while peeling your oranges! and you still made me down the pears and made me into a fatty bumbum! i love you all the same, *muah
ps. please read the below entry :)

there was some dice-throwing that went on at the foot of the cross.

imagine this scene. the soldiers are huddled in a circle, their eyes turned downward. the criminal above them is forgotten. they gamble for some used clothes. the tunic, the cloak, the sandals are all up for grabs. each soldier lays his luck on the hard earth, hoping to expand his wardrobe at the expense of a cross-killed carpenter.

here are common soldiers witnessing the world's most uncommon event and they don't even know it. as far as they're concered, it's just another friday morning and He is just another criminal. 'come on, hurry up; it's my turn!'

'all right, all right - this throw is for the sandals.'

casting lots for the possessions of Christ. heads ducked. eyes downward. cross forgotten.


you've heard the story many times before
how the soldiers gambled for the robe of the Lord
their laughter drowning out the Saviour's cry
'Father, forgive them,' as He bows His head and dies

and they were playing games at the foot of the cross
so close to His struggle
yet so far from the cost
never feeling the shame
and never sensing the loss
they were playing games at the foot of the cross

we're so quick to judge them
yet so slow to see
how their games resemble ones played by you and me
as we fight for position in the church of God
while the world goes on dying without the Saviour's love

it seems to be a regular weekly routine now, two km run before my driving lesson :) the most disciplined day of the week haha. i won't call it busy cos i'm finding that i don't see any non-busy day in my so-called 'honeymoon period before uni'..
ooh i just got an email from lifeng, am getting pretty excited for the ipho! :) haha.
driving last night was GOOD! haha i think i've made much progress visibly heh.. the stupid instructor kept singing in the car, then he'll ask me 'my opera nice anot?' i almost thought he was some psycho, but he was kwite strict about everything and i actually learnt alot from him! things like the way i hold my steering wheel, not letting me rest my head on the head-rest [it really helped!] and making sure i checked my blindspots by saying 'turn and look at my ugly face sayang', [ya and he kept calling me sayang which made me get goosebumps!]. my parents are going japan tomorrow! and my dad wants me to go start his engine every two days cos he says our car is old and the engine would die with no exercise.. heh how exciting.
took a look at my site stats today and found two pretty baffling things:

1. i actually have a visitor who came to my site by typing this into the google search engine: 'belinda teo blog moses' [like what the!]
2. my blog actually appeared here ! don't ask me what it's about, i honestly have no idea. my blog was named under 'butterfly' and apparently you can rate it! and i've got like one vote?? hahaha. kwite interesting huh?

lindy; haha ya i've linked you since long ago! hee. :)

huihui; haha yes i'll try to go for love mgs if i'm free! and i don't think i wanna play for founder's day, anyway since when did old girls start playing for founder's?!

so i'll be bidding you goodbye for a few days? haha will be moving into sara's tomorrow! don't worry, no monkey business hunns.

it seems to be a regular weekly routine now, two km run before my driving lesson :) the most disciplined day of the week haha. i won't call it busy cos i'm finding that i don't see any non-busy day in my so-called 'honeymoon period before uni'..
ooh i just got an email from lifeng, am getting pretty excited for the ipho! :) haha.
driving last night was GOOD! haha i think i've made much progress visibly heh.. the stupid instructor kept singing in the car, then he'll ask me 'my opera nice anot?' i almost thought he was some psycho, but he was kwite strict about everything and i actually learnt alot from him! things like the way i hold my steering wheel, not letting me rest my head on the head-rest [it really helped!] and making sure i checked my blindspots by saying 'turn and look at my ugly face sayang', [ya and he kept calling me sayang which made me get goosebumps!]. my parents are going japan tomorrow! and my dad wants me to go start his engine every two days cos he says our car is old and the engine would die with no exercise.. heh how exciting.
took a look at my site stats today and found two pretty baffling things:

1. i actually have a visitor who came to my site by typing this into the google search engine: 'belinda teo blog moses' [like what the!]
2. my blog actually appeared here ! don't ask me what it's about, i honestly have no idea. my blog was named under 'butterfly' and apparently you can rate it! and i've got like one vote?? hahaha. kwite interesting huh?

lindy; haha ya i've linked you since long ago! hee. :)

huihui; haha yes i'll try to go for love mgs if i'm free! and i don't think i wanna play for founder's day, anyway since when did old girls start playing for founder's?!

so i'll be bidding you goodbye for a few days? haha will be moving into sara's tomorrow! don't worry, no monkey business hunns.

the deeper we go in following Him, the darker it gets, the more frightening it gets, the more humbling it becomes. the great saints learned that the closer one walks to Christ, the more evil one discovers within.
the journey to the inner depths that Christ initiates may have its dark, disappointing moments. but the very fact that we are willing to make this journey and the very fact that we are appalled at what we find powerfully indicate that God is actively working in the real world of our hearts.
the pain that comes when we walk with Christ thru the inner self is a gift. it tells us that there is life within and that hope and possibility for the future exist. daniel became the man we know him to be because he was not afraid to deal with the pain of the heart. it was a threshold, he saw, to grace and new growth. and that's what we want to see as we forge this real-world faith that makes us increasingly like Christ.

moses has officially been taken away from me by the government :( but anyway he called me for like thirty seconds! haha, apparently he's really lucky, sleeping opposite nigel and beside nadim! haha not only having acquaintances in the same bunk, but actually close friends! i'm glad for him :)
last night was farewell dinner for moses with my family. my mum was supposed to treat! but just before we mai dan'd, she pointed it at it! yep so i treated and signed using my debit for the first time :) hee was kwite a satisfying feeling, like you feel kinda mature and all spending your own hard-earned money haha! had ben and jerry's with moses after that!! while my parents went to some wine-tasting fair at suntec.. had fish food :):) haha too bad jingmin wasn't working last night!
i think i'm beginning to get hold of the art of teaching :) if you think teaching's difficult, try teaching music. it really tests your threshold of patience to its max! sometimes i wish i could just lend the kids my fingers for that fortyfive minutes and take them back after that..
today was kwite a pigging day!

1. oily oily market fried beehoon/mee with omelette for breakfast. [i get really yummy breakfasts on saturday mornings :)]
2. milo freeze at long john's after with bev, and munching on bev's fries. [there really wasn't any room for lunch already]
3. dinner at thai express with weiren :):) curry soft shell crab with rice, prawn popiah, tom yam soup!
4. milo dinosaur with elroi, paul, lucy at the roti prata house!

okay maybe i din exactly eat THAT MUCH, but i just feel extremely unhealthy! it's been a long time since i last had just salad for lunch! i miss the healthy healthy exercising days in jc, trips to the pines, where we'd run at least four km, then swim at least twenty laps, and have salad for lunch :) sounds scary huh, but it was such a fulfilling feeling, regardless of whether i lose weight anot. i really don't mind my size at all, like i'm not complaining i'm fat cos i know i'm not, but i just hate being a piece of blob! i wanna exercise and be healthy! i don't wanna be a thin piece of blob, cos i'm still a blob! haha okay sorry for the irrelevant, random, meaningless ranting.. not like complaining's gonna help me become fitter/healthier haha. I NEED MASS PE! haha..

i'm training my self-discipline and getting ready for uni already. i'm in need of discipline.. from simple things like making a jogging schedule, not going out on sundays and really reserving that day just for rest, [okay i'm not trying to be orthodox and obeying the sabbath, i can't say i'm doing it for God, but i believe that it would be good to just go home after church, take a nice nap, and simply just rest your body, your mind from the busy-ness of life] to persisting with things i feel like giving up on at times! like piano teaching, this morning i was thinking, how much more free time i would have if i din have to teach piano on saturdays, but i really wanna earn my own allowance thru uni, i don't wanna take pocket money from my parents anymore, it's already bad enough that they have to pay for my tertiary education.

i should also stop spending money on cabs! i've spent about fifty bucks on cab the past few weeks! which is more than what i spend on food since i'm usually bringing food to the office these days.. grr i'm never gonna take cab again unless i'm extremely extremely tired, or there's really no other means to get home.

OH there's some crap about the gospel of judas in the today newspaper. PIECE OF CRAP..

it's time for bed my dears. ;)

sam: i'm learning at cdc! at ubi! that's why i get a lot of drama during my lessons, from dogs running across roads, to trucks zooming like an inch from me, to buses overtaking me, taxis horning at me, indian cyclists wearing all black such that i can't see them till i'm like a metre away in the dark, lots of road works and factories and factory workers running around heheh.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY PING! :)

oh my my i'm gonna fall asleep while driving later! i feel so tired, like seriously DRAINED. went for a run just now, kwite an unpleasant one, the air was all too moist and humid, i was breathing in moist and err heavy air.. the thickets seemed to be fighting with oxygen for me, hmm haha.
had lunch with shangwei and crys! it's been a LONG while my church pals :) anyway i can tell that shangwei's really anxious about ns haha, one of the most anxious amongst my guy friends i must say.. but it was good catching up! and i'll be keeping all my ns friends in prayer!
had sd cell at wallace's house last night. was pretty good, though the passage was err not that relevant to me, but everyone was sharing about what we aim to do for God in the next two years.. especially the guys! i see most of them have the fear that they won't be able to do qt and stuff in bmt, and also the bad influences. and wallace the cell leader gave us memory verses HURHUR.. romans 12:2, that's like tms man! haha. but it was good la :) and i'm really glad, that i'm actually much closer to darren, wallace, jlow, and the rest of the sd pals after jc. we've been hanging out and all, and i can foresee that it's like another tight group of friends for me :) i've got the mg girls, and now i can say i've got a tight ac group too, besides my classmates! :) and this is a special group, we actually have cell together, and we promised to be accountable to each other.. THANKEW GOD FOR BLESSING ME WITH THE BEST FRIENDS IN THE WHOLE WIDE WORLD! :):):)
ohh went for smu interview, which went pretty alright.
okay i shall go look for my training record book and get ready for comfort driving HEHEH :)

saturday don't come saturday don't come saturday don't come :(

Who am I, that the Lord of all the earth
Would care to know my name
Would care to feel my hurt
Who am I, that the Bright and Morning Star
Would choose to light the way
For my ever wandering heart

Not because of who I am But because of what You've done
Not because of what I've done B
ut because of who You are

I am a flower quickly fading
Here today and gone tomorrow
A wave tossed in the ocean
Vapor in the wind S
till You hear me when I'm calling
Lord, You catch me when I'm falling
And You've told me who I am
I am Yours, I am Yours

anonymous: HEH i'm not THAT pro yet [will be soon!] i just completed gear-shifting yesterday, which was my erm fourth lesson haha :)
mingdao: hello to you :) sorry i haven't had time to go thankgod soonsoon! everyone please go under my links and click on 'thank God!' [see i help you do publicity :P]
ryan: thanks for listening :)
sara the low who has vanished into thin air: can't wait to cohabitate with you!! :)
ohh thanks jingmin for messaging me and asking if i'm alright :)

i feel like an unhealthy slab of blob!
ate so much today, was supposed to go running in the evening but it had to rain :(
lunch was at mad jack's with moses and aunty doris, had a set lunch!
dinner ate lots and lots of oily chicken and was munching on chocolates, awfullly sinful chocolates after dinner! grr.
oh well, it's time for driving lesson! heh hope i get another funny instructor today :)

i'm a much happier girl now :)
thanks to ryan and jas for talking to me and trying to talk sense into me!
i'm hardly like that, please don't think i'm some emo freak, but i get this feeling that i'm on the brim of losing it all the time these days and i really don't know why.
oh well it doesn't really matter anymore, cos i somehow see things getting better :)

ANYWAY
happy sixteenth birthday lucy :):):):):)

i think i've really used up more than three quarts of my strength to stay strong.
my life's not as perfect as it seems.
i just wanna hide in one corner and cry.
God knows how weak i am deep down inside..

no v for vendetta for me in the end :(
oh well.

belinda
smu accountancy
'the Lord is my shepherd; i shall not want.' psalm 23


.adriel. alicia. andre. christine. debz. eliza. elizabeth. elroi. esther. germ. glori. grace. james. jane. jiehui. jingmin. joel. joshua. kevin. lijun. liwei. mg girls 2003. mich goh. mingdao. paul. ryan. sam. sara. shangjun. shangwei. shumin. thank God!. tee. tng. velda. weijie.