this thing called love i just can't handle it
this thing called love i must get round to it
i ain't ready, crazy little thing called love

this thing called love
it cries, in a cradle all night
it swings, it jives
it shakes all over like a jelly fish, i kind of like it
crazy little thing called love

watching singapore idol made me think, is singapore really that void of talent?? it was pathetic with a capital P. errr no need for further elaboration.. there are only two people that i think actually make the mark in the whole competition, and both crys and i think that sarah chan would beat ALL of them hands down. no need for auditions / voting even hahaha
went thru youth alpha course facilitation 'training' today.. okay i've got nothing else to blog about my day already.
infact i'm signing out about now cos there's nothing to be glad about and i don't like writing about unhappy things so CIAO!

i saw how easy it is to be two different people on weekends and weekdays when i was in traffic on afternoon. the driver of another car, upset with something i'd done, blew his horn, screamed at me thru the windshield, and underscored his thoughts with an obscene gesture. a second later, he recognized that it was his pastor with whom he was communicating. he was the same man who the previous sunday had vigorously shaken my hand at the door and assured me concerning the powerful blessing of the sermon. on sunday, a warm hand; on the weekday, a hand gesture.

-gordon macdonald

anonymous: err i don't suppose i passed? haha okay fine i DEFINITELY failed the circuit, but i passed the roads kwite well.
bev: thankew :)

surprise surprise! look what my dad fetched from the mailbox today?? an employment letter from pwc!!! heehee NAH JUST KIDDING. it was sara low shuli using her pwc documents illegally and posting them to me!! in case you can't see, the documents are entitled 'love from your best friend - year of assessment 2006' PARDX YOU ARE SOO CUTEEE :):):) i love you and thankew soo much :) it really made my day.

yesterday was shopping day with doreen, steph, bev and waimay! ooh okay not very successful, since doreen's self proclaimed 'great singapore sale' did not come to pass, but we still managed to grab a top each from topshop :) i really enjoyed that one hour sitting at starbucks with three good girlfriends, dating all the way back to sec two, drinking coffee and chatting ENDLESSLY :)
omg i can SO imagine us - the buncha mg pals, becoming future successful career people, and just taking one day off to do retail therapy and drink coffee together! or even maybe professional taitais, though i highly doubt, cos we're all pretty born workaholics already. okay maybe i don't kwite fit into that calibre yet, but ya you see steph the future dentist, so that's dr yeo for you. and waimay, probably a yet-to-be-cfo of some funky american bank. doreen the physiotherapist, who'll meet her husband dr james sng for lunch since they'll be working in the same hospital [i planned that part for them] HEEHEE. and oh bev! tucked away in some cosy corner in london PERIOD. and poor me, oh well let's not go into that HAHA

so anyway, i need some parking tuition here. wth is wrong with my wheel-sensing man. i've no idea how to turn the steering wheel once i've engaged the reverse geer like GRRRR annd MAJOR GRRR. and after reversing, forwarding, reversing, forwarding, reversing, forwarding about three times, I STILL CAN'T GET MY VEHICLE NICELY INTO THE STUPID PARALLEL SLOT! omg what's up bel.

therefore, the determined me came home and started reciting the steps to my mum, with her looking at me in dismay, 'sigh i thought your instructor said you're better than most boys?!'
owell that was a thing of the past, when i had just begun to make friends with the obstacles, PARALLEL PARKING comes along and ruins everything :(

okay enough of that incessant whining about driving! i've been keeping pretty well to my exercise regime, okay not very demanding, just doing some BASIC exercise at least on a daily basis. and when i say basic, i really mean basic. could be as basic as the standard crunches - sit ups - pumping exercises, to abit of skipping, jogging, and some swimming. yep but i'm kwite glad :) cos i've discovered how refreshing jogging can be, especially with a nice cold shower after that to complete the set. and tomorrow MIGHT see us working out at yong an park, residence of ms hiong again YAY to that :)

okay the tv's switched on but i'm not even watching it. project runway's never really been the show for me, but i can't wait for american idol results! i vote mcphee, my dad and elroi are for taylor, that's about all i've collated from the people around me haha. okay let's do a mini evaluation here.

i liked katharine's opening no! despite the judges' disagreement. yep i thought she started the show off on a pretty good note, not exactly grand or anything. but something really light and nice :)
her second song was obviously TERRIFIC, so there ain't no need for further elaboration on that.
her third was oh well alright. and i thought the song was nice! but she din kwite hit her notes for this song. the range was way too low for her at the beginning.

taylor's first was horrid for me. haha i hate it whenever he swaggers around from the audience onto stage and shakes around like a moron haha. but he's got kwite a good voice so ya.
his second was kwite mediocre and safe. i agree with the judges about the 'taylor style' though not everyone would actually appreciate that style.
and his third was nice nice :) even though i couldn't kwite concentrate cos my mum was talking to me haha. but i know he went flat at the beginning, but he picked up from there.

okay so the results would be out in about eight hours time! which i don't think i can wake up for haha. so i'll have to settle for the later show huh.

anyway before i go, i'll leave you with some pictures from our tuesday shopping twrippp :)

trouble is

my wings don't sail me to the sky
on my own these wings won't fly
Jesus told me so
still i'm not so sure that i know

can't find no rest for my soul
can't find no rest on my own
Jesus told me so
still i'm not so sure that i know

man, the trouble is
we don't know who we are instead

i'll keep runnin' the other way
my heart ain't built to stay
and the world just ain't that way

we don't know who we are instead

my heart ain't built to stay
Jesus told me so

so many things on my mind.
so many sleepless nights.
so many nightmares i pray will never come true.
so many dreams i wish could come true one day, but never will.
if only i could turn back time.

on a happier note, here's something funny lucy sent me weeks ago.

A woman was out golfing one day when she hit the ball into the woods.
She went into the woods to look for it and found a frog in a trap. The frog told her, "If you release me from this trap, I will grant you three wishes."
The woman freed the frog, and the frog said, "Thank you, but I failed to mention that there was a condition to your wishes. Whatever you wish for, your husband will get it ten times!"
The woman said, "That's okay."
For her first wish, she wanted to be the most beautiful woman in the world. The frog warned her, "You do realize that this wish will also make your husband the most handsome man in the world, an Adonis whom women will flock to". The woman replied, "That's okay, because I will be the most beautiful woman and he will have eyes only for me." So, KAZAM-she's the most beautiful Woman in the world! For her second wish, she wanted to be the richest woman in the world. The frog said, "That will make your husband the richest man in the world.
And he will be ten times richer than you. " The woman said, "That's okay, because what's mine is his and what's his is mine."
So, KAZAM-she's the richest woman in the world!
The frog then inquired about her third wish, and she answered, "I'd like a mild heart attack."
Moral of the story: Women are clever. Don't mess with them!
Attention female readers: This is the end of the joke for you. Stop here and continue feeling good!
Male readers: Please scroll down.













The man had a heart attack ten times milder than his wife!!!
Moral of the story: Women think they're really smart!
Let them continue to think that way and just enjoy the show!
PS: If you are a woman and are still reading this; it only goes to show that women never listen!!!

hahaha ya sorry that was kwite out of point, something nice and cheery on this blog AT LAST :)

ooh here's another treat.

hee a note from bev! she's SO sweet :)

and ya i'm getting counselling from weishieng and james on different issues now haha. i feel like such a wreck.

but anyway THANKS everyone, i know you've all been trying hard to cheer me up haha i REALLY appreciate all of it. that includes my parents. they've been doing alot to talk me into looking towards a bright and happy future haha. I LOVE YOU ALL and i promise i'll get over all of this soon :)

before i go, i'll leave you with the words of beariebevvie's notes for me :)

God has not promised skies always blue

flower-strewn pathways all our lives through

God has not promised sun without rain

joy without sorrow

peace without pain

but God has promised strength for the day

rest for the labour

light for the way

grace for the trials

help from above

unfailing sympathy

undying love

anon2: yep i'm most probably going for love mg. why do i have this feeling i know you? WHO ARE YOU

happy 19th birthday melissa guan shihui! :)
it's been great growing up with you, serving with you, seeing you almost 24/7 for the past 12 years! you're always the first to ask me 'belly are you okay?' whenever something goes wrong. thankew for being such a wonderful friend :)

all to Jesus i surrender
all to Him i freely give
i will ever love and trust Him
in His presence daily live

all to Jesus i surrender
humbly at His feet i bow
wordly pleasures all forsaken
take me, Jesus, take me now

i'm feeling terribly sad, i can't pin-point why.
could probably be a mix of everything..
unnecessary worrying.
insufficient trusting.
lack of focus.
attempt to control my own life.
yea that's right, not surrendering to the One who owns my life.

anonymouses: are you the same people?! anyway my test's in august and it's at 9.15am. and NUS HASN'T ACCEPTED ME YET

good news!
i booked my driving test date :)

bad news!
it clashes with the day nus starts school.
poor choice and very rash decision led to a horrible time slot!

good news!
my instructor said he was extremely impressed with me cos i cleared my s / crank courses in an hour, managed to do each crank course at least twice, and each s course like what five times? and i only hit the kerb ONCE!

bad news!
poor choice of test date / time again :( i'm extremely depressed cos of that. ask the people i've called about my incessant WHINING :(

good news!
i woke up at a frickin unearthly 7.15am to go jogging at east coast park! :):)

bad news!
i had brekkie with my mum after that at marine parade market and ate a bowl of prawn mee plus an iced milo :(

good news!
jas is going to thailand tomorrow and i predict my baibaipangpang friend WILL bring me thai goodies :)

bad news!
i'm gonna miss her terribly for four days :(

good news!
i'm going to visit night safari for ipho training this saturday!

bad news!
i have to memorize my kampong glam script before that :(

alright, that's all for broadcasts of the day. CNB bel's out :)

we've been on the run
driving in the sun
looking out for #1
california here we come
right back where we started from

i'm so in love with making collages :) haha and i'm getting better at photoshop! i'm gonna beat lucy and ryan hands down man HAHAHA

anonymous2: yep i'll go if i'm free on that night! which is pretty probable :)
anon: err i haven't decided yet!
bev: oh my goodness! aah i wanna see! is he cuter than matthew?? haha :)
llw: yes everyday is a party FOR NOW. everyday would be party for you too once the exams are over!

i saw sadness a few years ago on a chilly morning when i walked across a field in the ethopian countryside where several thousand people had come during the night, hoping to find food at a feeding centre. having only the clothes on their backs, most of them had slept through what was left of the night on ground absolutely bereft of vegetation. as i made my way through the crowd, several dozen children crowded about me. those closest grabbed my hands; others put their arms about my legs and waist. i commented to a doctor who accompanied me, 'these are some of the most affectionate children i have ever seen.'

'it's not affection they're seeking,' he said, 'they want your body warmth. they're freezing, and it's all the worse because they're so hungry.'

that day i learned that life can be very, very sad. i cried.

a less discernible but just as real sadness lies barely under the surface of a significant percentage of the world's affluent people. it's sadness disguised beneath the surface of stretch limos, condominiums, club med travel packages, cocktail parties, and designer clothes. but what lies beneath that surface? fear of things like being used, growind old, losing control of life and health, being left alone, forfeiting hard-earned status, and [worst of all] dying. it's a more sophisticated sadness, and it only fully announces itself when one comes off the last high. but it is very real and not too difficult to bring to the surface.

-gordon macdonald

anonymous: err i don't know but i heard the nissan sunny was a really cheap and good buy! and there was also some issue about my parents being forced to make a loan which they din wanna make. but making a loan helped them save 1000$ haha how retarded is that!
mich: good news should be shared :) haha oh man I LOVE SUSHI! haha nvm we must have a reunion soon!
shumin: YES rain is HOT! haha
shangwei: ya your mum was feeling so much pain for you while you were outfield at camp! haha

on the tip of my tongue
an offensive is poised and rearing
my intention: a bullet
my body: a trigger finger

and my pen is a pistola
they call me a fear, fear you,
yea my pen is a pistola

anonymous: err nissan sunny something haha. i don't know i was only in charge of choosing the colour! it's pearl red or something hee :)
llw: apparently not! i want my brokeback! haha

ps. thanks joel for teaching me photoshop hee :) you're really very patient! haha

anyway i can't wait for the arrival of our new car ! i already know which soft toys of mine are going into the car and i know how i'm gonna decorate the car already ! :) whee and i can already imagine myself driving that car to campus [ whichever i'm going to ] ! okay don't get it wrong, this isn't my own car but ya my dad said he'll give me priority when i get my driving license HEE . but apparently i won't get to drive to school in the first year cos they don't believe i'll be a very fit driver ... nvm on that .

i've a feeling i'm gonna get sick of typing like this very soon HAHA .. jas just messaged me and said her moh scholarship interviewer's hot THAT'S WHY she wants the moh scholarship now . sigh haha

ooh and i finished watching full house :( okay that's one down to the many korean serials i bought back from china .. haha my 80 cents per piece, quality not bad dvds :) reminds me i think i lost the initial d dvd majun bought back for me from hangzhou :( so while i'm at it, i better go dig out all the lost and found possessions !

finally, CONGRATS MICH ON GETTING THE LEE KONG CHIAN SCHOLARSHIP ! haha :)

germ: haha yes i've got a good memory. i enjoyed friday night very much :)
mich: how come you cried?! haha okay i think the most tragic part would probably be when the black guy got shot by the policeman in the car and thrown out after that. but ya i loved the show cos it was just basically impactful and i generally like these shows that deal with controversial issues. maybe you should join us for our movie marathons next time mich hee

it's sunday again, proper-blogging time. i can feel a flu coming, but it's a rather constipated feeling, like my nose's half-blocked and half-leaking..
so anyway, movie marathon at inez's was well, not so successful but it was still GREAT FUN! not successful - cos we only watched four movies hee. ten things i hate about you [which i missed], crash [this was so good!], the island [err most of us was asleep already hee] and the maid! haha
there was also this whole mountain of topics worth chatting about, from politics, to religion, boy-girl issues, our future prospects / careers.. and some it-savvying, learning how to err operate our combined blog hee. I LOVE YOU MY LOVELY GIRLS :)
headed home the next day to sleep and woke up at like 6pm, ie couldn't make it for crosslink anymore.. it's wonderful how my life could simply revolve around full house, sleeping, eating and snacking.
christine: you haven't been exercising as much as last year right?

me: ya definitely not. what's up?

christine: well you've put on weight

SIGH :( i told my mum and she replied, 'exercise more lor'
service today was great :) i think we really picked the right sunday to attend the service cos breakthrough missions came today! they're living testimonies of extreme transformations of God from ex-druggies :) wonderful wonderful..
community walk after that was seriously kwite fun hee. we had a mini political debate at the hdb void deck, we were talking like as if we'll never get caught for PUBLICLY showing our political party favours.. i don't know if this is allowed, but congratulations to wp and sda for showing yourselves to be worthy and un-vulnerable once again by the hougang / potong pasir voters! i stayed up till about 2am watching the polling results can you imagine? well apparently shangwei's mum told me this morning that she stayed up till 4am and she was also telling me about her 'poor boy out there in the field' and how he 'pumps 600 push-ups a day!' HAHA
me: don't worry aunty, i know shangwei can do it
HEE
okay i just slept for like 3.5 hours. SIGH what did i tell you about my life these days man? but i'm happy with it :)

bev: the **** stood for BLOG hee

i've technically clocked up about 10 hours worth of full house. the more i look at him, the hotter he gets.. HAHA

mich: haha aye don't bluff la, you'll be law-ing at nus la haha
sara: okay friday set. congrwats dear! very proud and happy for you :)

all work no play may have made jack a dull boy
but all work no God has left jack with a lost soul
but he's moving on full steam
he's chasing the american dream
and he's gonna give his family the finer things

not this time son i've no time to waste
maybe tomorrow we'll have time to play
and then he slips into his new bmw
and drives further and further and further away

cos he works all day and tries to sleep at night
he says things will get better, better in time

so he works and he builds with his own two hands
and he pours all he has in a castle made with sand
but the wind and the rain are comin' crashing in
time will tell just how long his kingdom stands
his kingdom stands

his american dream is beginning to seem
more and more like a nightmare
with every passing day
'daddy, can you come to my game?'
'oh baby, please don't work late.'
another wasted weekend
and they are slipping away

cos he works all day and lies awake at night
he tells them things will get better
it'll just take a little more time

he used to say, 'whoever dies with the most toys wins'
but if he loses his soul, what has he gained in the end
i'll take a shack on a rock
over a castle in the sand

now he works all day and cries alone at night
it's not getting any better
looks like he's running out of time

all they really wanted was you

are you trying to live out that american dream? building with your own two hands, pouring all you have into a castle made with sand?

belinda
smu accountancy
'the Lord is my shepherd; i shall not want.' psalm 23


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